Love, Hate, Indifference.

I'd rather love than be indifferent...

I'd rather love than hate...

I'd rather hate than be indifferent...

I can't believe I'm biking as fast as this car now. I guess I've gotten stronger since they first started appearing. I can't believe how fast they infected so many, and they're still at it. I gotta bike fast, I have to get to that shelter as fast as possible. I can't believe that after a week of scavenging food, a week of running about, a week of hiding from those things, I'm finally almost there. Just a left turn here... or was it a right turn. Ah who cares! I must be really close. Wait a second... there it is! Yes that has to be it! Ahahaha. This is so exci...

?! What happened?! Where, where am I... am I, am I still moving? I can't see anything it's so dark. Ugh... I can't move my arms and legs. Last thing I remember was biking then that... truck hit me? I'm glad I'm still alive... how the hell am I still moving?! WHA?! That light! It's too bright! Gah! I still can't move my hands!

HEY! People! There are people here! I can't believe it! Hey! Help me out! I was stru... I can't hear myself... I can't even feel my lips... WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?! Wait what?! Am I falling?! What?!

It's so dark where did they put me? Ow! I felt that! what did my head bump into to? Wait, am I moving? How the... I don't even wanna! I can't control my legs... where am I taking me?!

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How... how did this happen to me? Help me... anybody please! I've been walking for days now. Help me! CAN ANYONE HEAR ME?! Help. Please. Anybody.

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i feel so hungry and tired... i can't even think... properly... why won't... i... stop... moving... wait. is that? i smell it. food. or is that. blood. wah. my legs. i think. i think i'm running now. what. wha. it's a person. it's a person? it's food... NO! that's a person i don't eat people. it's food... No! i can't no. that's another person a living breathing... it's food. no! i can't... no. no... food... eat... N... food... food...

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The End.

Back to my own ways... only better.

It's been a good run this second quarter...
I learned a lot and improved my acads a lot; I at least hope that I did. I guess we'll find out at Card Giving. It was an amazing quarter. It all feels so nostalgic reminiscing even about things done just a month ago. Five months to go, actually one plus four. I think I'm excited but at the same time afraid. Excited to finally finish high school but nervous to find out that I wasn't able to do anything I wanted.

My head is not making sense at the moment I seem to want to write about everything right now but it just doesn't feel right...

*sigh* I'm excited :D

I Lost The Game.

I'm doing well. Small Progress but Progress nonetheless. I seem to want more though. I guess LDMU is starting to kick in. The feeling isn't as high when I first started looking. Back then, there was zero progress and only all in my head. But now I say it's getting better. I'm more comfortable and there's much more ground to cover. I'm still losing though, to someone who isn't even playing. I'm not sure if I should be glad or not but if he wins it'll hurt but I will have lost trying.

Well atleast, I think I'm still trying. Don't know if I should continue, not exactly sure what lies ahead. Maybe that's what draws me in, and it's probably what's also keeping me away. Five months to go... but there's time and an opportunity in four. There is hope in my pocket, and it'll last me 'til the end of High School. I'll find a new source eventually and it'll get me to feel just as high as before.

Gonna run in thirty five.

Rematch.

How could you be so good and expect everybody to be as good as you? That's why you're "good" in the first place, you're better than most people. It seems deconstructive criticism to me, trash-talking, but not really because you would know, you are really good. It sucks that I can't be good as you; I know that, you know that. I just wish you would help me so that you wouldn't have to criticize me... It disheartens me and now I don't want to play...

But really, I've been playing for a while and in all my games with you as a teammate, I've been sucking and you were there tell me I sucked. After games I feel so depressed and I wonder why I even play at all. I'd like to learn from you though. I'm gonna get better just to prove to you I don't suck. I'll show you that I can help, that I can play. Maybe I won't ever be better than you, maybe I won't ever defeat you, maybe I won't even be half as good as you. But eventually, I won't suck.

It's time for a rematch.

Things to Do:

1. Learn an instrument (not needed to move on to next step on list)
2. Finish College
3. Finish Masters if I can
4. Get a Job
5. Get Married
6. Have Children
7. Grab a PHD
8. Have more Children
9. Retire
10. Grow Old
11. If I reach 100 years old, start smoking

but first...

Graduate High School with HONORS :>

Same... Only Different.

Not going to fail this year. This...

Is...

I...
am...
EXCITED.

Let's not Fail.