I'm impressed.

Separation is the way to go. It's more than time, it's more than how far away. It's how long you've been away, no matter how near. It sucks... would be what I should be saying but I honestly don't feel that way. As easy as it was for me to fall in love with you, it was just as easy for me to forget that I have been in love with you. Not to say I've forgotten I was in love with you, but somewhere along the way, I did forget I was in love with you. But I do remember I had been in love with you. But only just now.

Looking back, I never did anything to make you feel that I was in love with you, and maybe I should be sorry. But I'm not, because you never looked at me that way anyway. Because I never made a move. So you never would have considered me that way. So I should be sorry? Er... I'm confused.

At night, or sometimes during the wee hours of the morning, I lay on my bed and try to think of something that would help me fall asleep. Why is it, that there is only one face that ends up on my mind, one face that ends up on my mind before sleep takes me.

And then I think it must be true.

I wake up the next morning, or early afternoon, and I go about my own business. I eat, I shower, I play games, not once thinking about the last face on my mind the night before.

So now I think it couldn't be true.

Is it that I was truly in love with you, or am I in love with the thought of being in love with you, or maybe the thought of just being in love in general?

Perhaps those were all true at one point in time... but I guess what matters right now, is what I feel right now.

Am I in love? Am I?

[Note: being in love is different from being IN love. Being infatuated vs being within love, is not the question here. To be within love, it must be mutual, whether due to infatuation or choice, being mutual means being IN love. That is not the case here.]

I actually have nothing to say.

Or do I?

Call me Jigoro.

I just realized I'm good at looking for things that aren't there :))

Hopefully, I'll have someone else mention that for me. You know in a real cliche manner portrayed in most pop culture.

But seriously, maybe I'm really great a symbolism too and in the future I went back in time to show myself what the future holds through my Autobiography. Except I won't really be able to tell it's the future until it becomes the present because it comes in not autobiography form? Er... I... don't understand either :)) Oh, well.

Will she ever ask?

So... that's the plan then. Avoid until pursued. But what if there's no chase. Then nothing's lost, right? Well net on one side is negative whether or not the plan is followed or not. So is there truly nothing lost? Just the slight chance of gain maybe?

I feel a depression

a depression in my chest

where my heart should be

 

nothing...

only the space

I left for you.

 

*bow*

*clap clap clap*

*sips cup of joe*

 

//You know stereotypical emo/hipster poetry in an underground coffee shop

And I'm going to Die Tonite.

The story of my Finals Break.

I don't want to work. Yet. Thank you break.

But can I atleast wake up normally. *sigh*

Sleeping patterns

Bullets: {d6}
Shots: {d6}{d6}

I think I'll be a Taxonomist.

...Or a Computer Engineer? :))

Contemplating Time Travel.

If ever I do invent Time Travel... I actually would already have.

Future me would have realized that by going to this present to change things... well he has to because if he doesn't his past will be gone and my future will be different. But he doesn't actually realize this until he's back in the future. But the thing is, I've already realized it here in the present so future me doesn't need to back to this present to learn it.

If for whatever reason you time travel backwards, nothing will change because time has already accounted / been accounting for your actions for when you time traveled/ will time travel (I don't know what tense to use o.o)

The consequences of you time travelling has already been accounted for because you have time traveled it will have happened anyway.

So why time travel? Wait, have I just convinced you to NOT make a time machine? To NOT time travel? So wait... future you won't be going back in time anymore? Why is everything still the same? Get it now? Whether or not you go back in time, everything has happened precisely because you may or may not have time traveled to that specific point in time.

Oh, you lost your something? And it still isn't with you in the future? Time Travels. Retrieves it but it gets even more lost.
Oh, you lost your something? And it still isn't with you in the future? Doesn't time travel. Still lost.

If you did manage to get back your something due to time traveling, why isn't it with you now?

It's confusing really and it should probably be contemplated when you're not busy and want to be busy or over a few drinks with some friends.

The only way to change the past is to change the present because your present's future's past is your present's present present.

Perspective I suppose.

I need a diagram. + Relate this to gaming (actually I have, through the Life's just a game where you lose your lives / restart from a savepoint all the time. Of course you don't remember silly :P)