Melt with You.

I get it now. Or I have for awhile but I just haven't admitted it.

I don't follow your rules therefore, you won't follow mine.

It's a simple as that. No matter how much you tell two people, you're cute together, you guys should be a thing, or something of the sort, they won't if they don't want to. If any other person tries to pair you up with another, it doesn't matter if they want you to be together or not if you don't want to be together, you won't be.

I've messed up... I should really stop messing with relationships. It'll happen or it won't, for better or worse, I can't control that. Fortunately, they can! So I can still play match-maker (hopefully not a gay fat one), but I have to change my approach. I won't do it directly >:) I won't set-up dates, coordinating schedules, assigning to the same team, invite both to the same party, other things... (unless they want me to). I'll just have to change their view on the world.

If they think they want it, I'll help. Once they dedicate, I'll be there too. If they decide they don't wanna, I'll be there offering an ear or a crying shoulder. If they haven't decided, I'll help them go for it. It's not good to force anyone against their will, but if they're at least willing to try then I'll make them go for it.

But Alas!
(Alas!)

I can't do this until I've taken my own advice. I have to go out there, try it out first. Refine it, experiment, get better, MAKE PROFIT.

I'm just waiting for the most opportune moment to be able to run as fast as I can, far... far... FAR away. (Should be a different post.)

You Offered...

Sort of...

*sigh* Conflicted again :)) This is actually quite fun to pretend to think I'm in it and to act that I'm in it when I might not actually be... I just don't want you hurt... I think you shall be S. :D Yeah! Okay...

Shot Down. It only took a day... maybe I came on too strong... I'm... :/ dissapoint.

Recovered. Almost Immediately :D.

Well that part of my life is done :))

See you S. Hopefully soon. But prolly not the same way as today? :))

Dammit. I'm a Black Mage not a Time Mage.

Oh well... Secret Plans and Private Judgements :>

I must get a better watch... Wait. I don't even have one.

To Do List
1. Get a Watch.
2. Check Watch for Time.
3. Adjust Time on Watch (it's just new, it might have the wrong time)
4. Check Watch for Time.
5. Proceed with Secret Plans.
6. Get an Alarm Clock.
7. Replace Watch with a Watch which also has a loud Alarm Clock.
8. Give Away Alarm Clock.
9. Tick of Creating a To Do List on my To Do List.

*Not necessarily in order*

To ship or not to ship, that is the question!

Good Read.

I still wonder why I even bother with this. There's still something stopping me or something that's bringing me back. Not much has changed. Yeah, it's true. Underneath it all, nothing's changed. Not ever. It was the same as before, during, and after.

I think I may be up to no good or possibly readying to be up to no good. I'm excited to see what will happen this year, and I wonder, which one I am. Hm... I still can't post properly; I'm still afraid of posting actual details, that's why my posts seem so uncoordinated. I don't wanna post something that I know I don't want anybody to see. And yet, I created this blog for that purpose. To record my thoughts, and to tell the world what I know. I still feel embarrassed and this is just all talk. But I'm gonna get better. Way way way better. I'm gonna get over it. I'm gonna grow up.

But not yet. I don't wanna grow up too fast. I wanna enjoy this last year. It feels so fast, yet the days feel so slow. I'm.... I'm.... rambling again I think. Hm.... Enough of this nonsense I'm gonna go think up some stuff.

But still, why do I even bother? :))