Screw This.

Ha! I wish I could go "Screw This" and no that's not what she just said. I can't give up. Not yet, not when I've come so far. It's practically the last sprint to the finish, if I stop running I'll never get there, momentum take me there. But what if YOUR momentum was taken away, just like that? Your driving force, the thing that keeps you going, went, and is now gone. Kinda makes you stop, like literally. You have to start from the beginning working your way up, getting faster, and faster until reach up to speed. But you can't build up slowly you have to build fast.

Acceleration vs Top Speed, which do you need more? The ultimate Racing Game Question. One kart has the best acceleration, but not a very high top speed, while the other is incredibly fast but takes too long to get to that speed. Or one could go for the balanced kart which has average speed and average acceleration. It's so conflicting. If I take time to decide I'd be wasting time.

But I think there is a use for each kart.
If you want to pass, study fast, get your grade.
If you want something high, study long for hours, get your grade.
If you want a compromise, study enough, get your grade.

An increase in studying by 1% might not always mean an increase of 1% in grade but it might be a good measure.

I think I've already picked the fast car except I've hit a speed bump, called Puzzle Pirates (and something else :>), so now I'm slow again and I have to accelerate just to get to my top speed. But I'll get there. I know I can. I WILL get there.

I just wish I had some speed boosters handy. Oh Shiny Item Box where are you? Why can't I have speed boosters?

[Next Time I should pick one game to base my posts on, like this one should be Mario Kart but that's for next time.]

It must be True...

I've made a decision not to go to sleep early tonight. I guess it's because I was reading TV Tropes but that's just me trying to make me forget about you. I know that it's so incredibly stupid posting about you when I know that people could be reading this at this time especially right now because it's so incredibly late. What I'm trying to say is, I'm incredibly something-headed right now that I just wanted to post something about you. To finally not feel guilty about posting about liking you. There I said it. TV Tropes might have indeed just made my mind all that much clearer, or higher I'm not sure at the moment, but I guess this post will probably never see the light of day...

Okay... now for something more stupid than my first action. I really do like you. I really, really do. In the hopes that you'll never see this blog ever, ever again. I hope that I can at least make you happy without you ever knowing that I have feelings for you.

Now to shoot myself down... This is probably just puppy love if ever it is love. This is most likely even JUST infatuation or even worse, long unresolved sexual tension. Hmph. Give up. Now. Because there is no Rule of Romantic. You aren't a Dogged Nice Guy, or a Nice Guy to begin with, or The Hero. You're just ridiculously average...

Here's to hoping that there is a Rule of Romantic.
I'll be here for you.

(This is what happens when a friend is missing.)

It should never be like this ever...

Xam: Hi! :D
Alice: Hello :]
Alice: oh and Good Night! :))
Alice has signed off
Xam: o.o

... Must remember to finish this :))

Coulda. Shoulda. Woulda. Didn't.

Eenie. Meenie. Mynie. Moe.

Five minus 2  = 4

"Mere Compliance"

It sucks to have that written down on my "family"'s paper. I blame this all one thing.


Hm... all the negativity is gone...

Thank you new phone. I will post about above when I remember.

-> A pt

Offering Escape from Reality

1.00 PhP for 900nF ceramic capacitor.

So that's what she meant. I finally understand what today offers as escapes from reality. Thank you GoSick, thanks for that momentary escape. I have to go back now, but I'll forever remember this.

First Anime Finished. WOOT!

Practice. Practice. Practice. BOOM John Lloyd

I really think I can improve my sports capabilities, be more athletic and stuff. I bet I could improve my frisbee throws and catches, my basketball shooting skills, softball batting skills, and in general running speed. I'd like to be able to catch all of the throws they throw to me and be able to make the frisbee go to who I want it to go to. I'd like to be able to sink all my 2 and 3 point shots, especially free throws. I'd like to be able to hit every softball, too high, too low, doesn't matter, just everyone of them that comes my way and send it far enough for my team to get two bases, atleast. I'd like to run faster too, because it's really important for a lot of sports, I'd like to be able to keep running like that for a longer while too.

But it's incredibly hard to practice, especially when there are people who are so much better than you present during practices. It feels so embarrassing not being able to catch, to throw, to shoot, to bat every single thing that comes your way. It sucks... it's this mentality that stops some people from ever moving up. Maybe people like me? I'd like to get better, I wouldn't mind working hard to get better, I just don't like the eyes watching. I just don't think people can see me as someone who can shoot or throw or bat. It's disheartening, but there's no other way. Plus practice with other people will bring in criticism, hopefully constructive, so that what you're doing wrong can be corrected immediately, because apparently, practice makes permanent.

How do I practice this?

Maybe start practicing alone, then when I get a bit average I practice with others. Yeah maybe that's a good solution. I'll try it, somehow.

Walk. Run. Fly.