It's not that I don't want to say hi

It's just that I can't because... well I probably could I just don't? I don't know what to talk about anymore... or ever but yeah maybe when I get over it. Not in a rush though but yeah. Just so you know :))

Dreams... again?

Well no I didn't have a dream recently but if I did and I remembered...

What if what happens in a dream actually does happen? And all you have to do is to get the courage to say, I know this happened not just in a dream. And then it just becomes real. Like you wake up from your dream. Your dream, your dream girl, you were hers and she was yours. But in real life she isn't... or is she? What if she does remember that dream too but she thinks it's just a dream too. What if you went up to her and said, in my dream... and she says, I remember.

That could be a movie or a book I suppose. Maybe you just have to let the other people be aware that you were in the dream together because it was real... they just thought they were in a dream so they forgot it. What if you could hold on to your dreams? Well screw that plan! Then you wouldn't get the tingly feeling when you remember parts of it and want to know more. It's not yours to keep... It's just a dream a figment of your mind.

You can have plenty more, some you can live in.

Wait are these dreams or dreams now? I can't tell where I'm going with this.

Just... Conspiracies alright. Just let people know. Let them remember. Your dream. Our dream. Our reality.

//And because I'm not pleased with how this post worked out I'm going to write another one... maybe :))

Hey! That's what I said!

Then again that's what I said long long ago and it didn't work out for me. I wasn't being approachable enough. But if someone does approach. I'll be there. Definitely :D

I almost failed the friend test.

//Now for a post that does not involve staying up, printing, and proving you are a true friend.
//Okay, maybe the true friend part could be part of this story.

Today (yesterday) was alright day. I'll probably always start with that statement but we'll see. So I got up at a later because sir announced that there wouldn't be Bio Lec tomorrow. But I still got to school around the time I usually arrive. I got there and conversed with high school friends and it was alright. I was just there actually occasionally making side comments just listening in on their conversations while I was defeating the 8th gym in Pokemon Black 2. I finished and we still had time left before Bio Lab but I decided to go on anyway. Before playing I had already copied the questions I needed to answer for Chem Lec which was due tomorrow (today) so I went to the Bio Lab room. I got there and of course the teacher hadn't arrived, making small talk with some of my blocmates but I decided to ask my groupmates for answers to the lab activity we continued that day.

//I'll do a complete narrative some other time though a lot of things happened today (yesterday-now) so we'll see if I continue this or not. :D
//But it's out here because... I dunno I don't like drafts that already have some kind of thing going on except if they're Will Never See Posts.

Apparently I choose my words carefully.

From all my chats online and in real life you'll never hear me say things like

Vs. The World

I'm not sure if the Universe is against me or with me.These opportunities are crazy and from the answer I thought I had... I now have more questions.

Details I shall never post. You'll just have to extract them out of me. Some of you will have a harder time. Actually most of you. But just give the right password and it'll be all well.

There is room for change but for now I'll just stick with it.

Why'd you have to go

and come back?

It was weird when you left. One person less in the group. I thought it would be the same and nothing would change. Except for maybe the lack of your seemingly quiet presence. Seemingly because we all knew you weren't the quiet type. But there was one thing you were quiet about... and when you came back... well it all went even more downhill.

Before you left, it was pretty fun with the group. Nothing was awkward everything was just fun. Well for me atleast. Obviously that wasn't the case. When you left, things started surfacing, and the most devastating for me, happened after the December break. When you came back, you didn't hang out with us as much; you always had plans. Though the times we did hang it was normal, just like the old times kind of thing, but it wasn't like the old times because you were gone even though you were there.

After December break I realized I was really being blind. I was turning away from what was. I never had a chance but you did. And you took it. But what happened? Tell me. I thought you had it covered. I thought you had a plan past that. Did you? Did it not work out? Could it have?
//Well I tried to take it and crashed and burned on that one

We don't hang out anymore though this semester we're going to be classmates. I don't mind though. It was a weird last few months. This past semester I hadn't heard of you and now here you are again. Though I heard you don't hang out anymore, well obviously. You do know why right? Right? I know you are that smart, that intelligent. I have no plans hanging out like we used to but if the universe tells me too then I'll be alright with that.

I guess I'm just feeling bad for the friendship that was lost. I'm sorry I didn't try to get it back to the way it was. But the normality of you gone... I thought everything was set.

Maybe someday we'll all hang out sometime. Maybe when you guys stop avoiding each other. Maybe when it all gets un-awkward...

Okay, let's face it that's going to be impossible. Atleast say hi next time. Even just the next time.

But yeah. You still... You're still... I've forgiven you, though it's not my place to have been hurt. But I'll remember that...

But I'll remember the old times too.

//Does this sound like it's for a girl? o.o
//Not really senti-mode just remembered some stuff because of homework.
//Inspired by other posts about other friends