This needs a long one.

So... all my matches today were losses. Considering I've only played this heroes once or twice it'd be fine. Except, everybody else seems to get the hang of their hero like right off the bat. It's like I refuse to learn. I don't know what to do, but I'm sure that if I want to play the hero, I've got to test them a bit more. It'll be fun, kinda. Maybe, not really. Actually, yeah it probably will be. But lots of hurt right now. Not for failing to learn so fast, but failing my team these games. Huhuhu. Learn Learn Learn. Need More Practice.

Feels.

At least I know I'm not in it just for the feels. Still waiting for that one girl.

"I miss the love that was almost there~" THIS SONG xD wew wew wew

In other news, I've finally dreamt about her, er... rather, I've seen her in my dreams. Twice it has happened, and I think I just waved at her, while she waved back. I don't think I like her anymore. But it's always been fun to think that I still do. There's nothing to tell about, so I end up repeating the same old story. The feels are the same, especially the stupid-ness xD.

Sometimes I really want to text you, say "Hi" and finally have a conversation after months of no contact. I bumped into you once this whole year, and we had small talk. I just wanna be friends again :)) Our circle of friends is one the circles I haven't been interacting with much these days. I miss it. I miss you guys.

This feels, I'm not feeling right now though. It's just been nagging at me. Nudging.

"I'm never gonna dance again, guilty feet have no rhythm~" :))

What. The. What.

"Wait, wait, what, they're not? But it's so freaking obvious!"

I. Have. No. Idea. How. To. React.

I'm not ready for this o.o I never have been ready and I never will be o.o

To quote myself  "she needs to be a gamer before a show of dominance impresses me :))"

This is gahh gahh what what. BLAGLAKH:RJAKGAHYPOIRUAKGLAHPRALGHP (can't pronounce that either...) I'm. Bleh.

Back to watching Frozen now. (Finally watching Frozen now.)

Chem Gaming-ish.

All girls have good angles, but life is about looking for the girl who looks good in all angles.

That's kinda superficial I guess but because of the latter clause it well hm...

Look, the one you'll eventually find will no longer need to be all...

Let's say you have a checklist. That one person you'll find... the checklist doesn't matter. That one person will just be...

I'm not doing well explaining this. This is kinda awkward now...

Also, contradictions will follow. Er... She will have flaws. But she will... look good anyway o.o
Hm... no contradiction there apparently xD So yeah! Go find that one person.

"Hey look! It's that ONE guy!" -Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World, some bystander referring to Matthew Pattel. At least that's what I remember xD Also, references the fact that Pattel is the first evil ex :-bd Bam! Movie Triva!

//Cramming studying for BioChem Long Exam tomorrow. But once again not feeling the pressure. I guess subconsciously, I'm know I'm going to pass, or even do well. But how well really depends on what I do right now. So yeah, back to studying :D (Yes, I've been studying already :-bd Yey for progess!)

Questions Unanswered.

"How do you tell if a girl you like, likes you too?"
"How do you tell the girl you like, you like her too?"
Also, "How do you start a conversation with a stranger you just happen to like?"
"Are you free on _____?" xD

More to come.
//Techno / Electronika / House Music / Dub step here
//Cry too stronk <3

Much Feels. Very Feeler.

Ahahaha. Don't do that XD Update after we haven't chatted for months. It's... I'm a feeler xD

Foolish Fools! *whips*

Who ever invented April fools is a genius and fooled everybody that Pranks are only permittable on April 1st. Ahahahaha. Fools!
Don't hurt anybody, and don't take it too seriously, and everybody should be fine.

What I should take seriously though is that I took my BioChem Finals without studying. Ahahaha. I don't remember posting it here, but I had given up on it. I really had. But the scores were returned, and I have just enough to take the removals. If I pass that I won't have to take this subject again.

This is what I've been wishing for the whole semester. My chance to redeem myself. If I can pass this and not have to take the subject again, I will get through my next 2 years in college pretty well. "I will" because I'm fixing my stuff. Yeah I am.

Just to update, I ran for Academics Committee Chair for the organization I'm in, and won, so that's a plus one in my responsibilites. After this semester I'm never taking a Finals that isn't required, and even if I don't take a required Finals I should still be able to pass. My parents are having money problems, we're in debt, like by a lot so I have to be a bit smarter with my money. I'm considering getting a part-time job even with my summer class, bonus points if I can keep it secret and surprise them with my first paycheck and make them cry or something (so melodramatic xD). I really like playing games!

I learned a new thing about dating... I think. Something about defining the relationship, and treating it as "let's continue this" or "let's stop this" thing. I think this is why being steady is something. Probably still shouldn't flirt with other chicks if you're dating someone and you definitely shouldn't flirt with other chicks if you're steady with someone. Sorry to non-straight, not men who are reading this, I am a straight dude so my examples are definitely straight.

Note though, I think that it doesn't matter if you're in love with a male or a female because kissing them feels the same, it's just different if you love someone I guess xD weird but yeah. (still straight though xD not sure I'm open to being in a relationship with a dude :)) prolly not xD)

So yeah Dating. That is more responsibility. Don't know if I want more responsibility or not. Maybe more will keep me on track better, or more will kill me and just make me fail more people. I can change! I believe I can.

Promises shouldn't broken. Don't promise anything you can't do/give. So yeah.

//WOOH LONG POST BUT STILL JUST JUNK. NEED MORE CREATIVE STUFF.