I need to play. Help me please. Really. Someone. OMG. I want to play so bad. But school is in the way. I go cold turkey for a week and on Saturday I'm better, you know, cured. Then I play. I PLAY UNTIL IT'S TUESDAY. And then it's gone. I go on forums and wikis, but my thirst is not quenched.
GIVE ME MY GAMES. LET ME PLAY.
But I really have to do well in my acads T-T
Side note: The first time I learned that the word withdrawal could be used for drug addiction was when my character in Kingdom of Loathing (many many years back) used goofballs. Best. Trip. Ever.
November 27, 2013
November 14, 2013
Big plans?
Finished Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney: Dual Destinies a few hours ago and currently reading World War Z. Seems to me like it's both relevant to the current state of the Philippines. PW I guess with the Pork Barrel thing and WWZ with the whole disaster thing. Hoping WWZ sacrifice plans won't succeed while PW bring the justice plot works out.
Don't really know how to explain more because it's almost 1AM and I should not be online T-T. Also, the title is when some kind of aura-reader/psychic/soul-see-er kind of lady told my mom that I had big plans... maybe President of the Philippines? :)) Cancel classes whenever it rains :3
BUT DAMMIT WHY AREN'T THE PEOPLE GETTING THEIR FOOD. WHY ARE THEY DYING OF STARVATION. WHY?
Don't really know how to explain more because it's almost 1AM and I should not be online T-T. Also, the title is when some kind of aura-reader/psychic/soul-see-er kind of lady told my mom that I had big plans... maybe President of the Philippines? :)) Cancel classes whenever it rains :3
BUT DAMMIT WHY AREN'T THE PEOPLE GETTING THEIR FOOD. WHY ARE THEY DYING OF STARVATION. WHY?
November 10, 2013
Happy KB!
I will leave this note here for my death dream and interesting theory on what happens before.
In other news, Batman game is awesome game. And I still haven't finished Ace Attorney Dual Destinies despite getting over the Pokemon Craze. I just realized my WF schedules are the same as last sem (my classes are even in the same building) except I have Physics in place of last sem's lunch time. My TTh is free-er though with a break right after math, but it's still an 8:30 to night kind of schedule.
I want to buy a ukulele I think. But I will keep it at home and I will hide it from the world and bring it only for special occasions or something. But I will practice. Whee~
For things that are wrong with me... hm... I seem to have gotten fatter? Not too wrong I suppose, my belly has grown though, I think. Though I feel bloated often. Yeah I dunno.
This is just me not having anything interesting/artistic to post. I don't have any love-related issues recently which is fine with me :)) It's like that movie with the writers I guess? I don't have inspiration for creative posts. Is it because of a lack of er... a Person of Interest or maybe it's due to excessive gaming? Don't really think it's because of gaming though. Hm...
I also have to fix something with some friends I think. It's a problem for me because it's a problem between two of my friends. Yeah, that's something to worry about right? Er... well, worrying is bad I guess but I suppose it's the first step to doing something about it. Acknowledging the worry is probably the second. So yeah, will do something about it. I miss them yeah. I miss hanging out with them. With both of them.
//Oh the title is just referencing a High School Running Gag I guess. It's supposedly his birthday everyday :)) Well today's for real. KB!
In other news, Batman game is awesome game. And I still haven't finished Ace Attorney Dual Destinies despite getting over the Pokemon Craze. I just realized my WF schedules are the same as last sem (my classes are even in the same building) except I have Physics in place of last sem's lunch time. My TTh is free-er though with a break right after math, but it's still an 8:30 to night kind of schedule.
I want to buy a ukulele I think. But I will keep it at home and I will hide it from the world and bring it only for special occasions or something. But I will practice. Whee~
For things that are wrong with me... hm... I seem to have gotten fatter? Not too wrong I suppose, my belly has grown though, I think. Though I feel bloated often. Yeah I dunno.
This is just me not having anything interesting/artistic to post. I don't have any love-related issues recently which is fine with me :)) It's like that movie with the writers I guess? I don't have inspiration for creative posts. Is it because of a lack of er... a Person of Interest or maybe it's due to excessive gaming? Don't really think it's because of gaming though. Hm...
I also have to fix something with some friends I think. It's a problem for me because it's a problem between two of my friends. Yeah, that's something to worry about right? Er... well, worrying is bad I guess but I suppose it's the first step to doing something about it. Acknowledging the worry is probably the second. So yeah, will do something about it. I miss them yeah. I miss hanging out with them. With both of them.
//Oh the title is just referencing a High School Running Gag I guess. It's supposedly his birthday everyday :)) Well today's for real. KB!
October 30, 2013
Thoughts on Cleaning my Room.
Woohoo the table's clean! Where's my bed?! -_-"
Alright the bed's good. Now I can't see the floor -_-"
Alright I can see the floor, but I can see dust bunnies too. -_-"
Room's Clean xD
What now?
Now my life is meaningless T-T
Whee more Pokemon~
Alright the bed's good. Now I can't see the floor -_-"
Alright I can see the floor, but I can see dust bunnies too. -_-"
Room's Clean xD
What now?
Now my life is meaningless T-T
Whee more Pokemon~
Clutter.
If there were something wrong, I'd tell you.
Since there's nothing wrong, what would I tell you?
Nothing. I can only tell you nothing.
Questions from you come and I don't have answers. So I answer I don't know. But maybe the right answer is just nothing. There was nothing to know and I knew that it was nothing so the answer shouldn't have been I don't know but nothing.
Well, that wasn't the argument anyway. You acknowledged my scholarship, you acknowledged my lack of vices, it's just that the cleanliness... then the waking up at the right time.
I know what to do. I know how to do it. I sometimes wish I didn't. I don't want to be labeled smart or intelligent, because those labels come with responsibilities, hell, all labels come with responsibilities.
Maybe I don't want that. I don't want responsibilities. Honestly, I just don't want anyone to think of me as their responsibility. I don't want to hinder anyone's growth because they're stuck worrying about me.
While we're switching topics randomly, let's have a go at this one. You know how it's unfair that your parents are cramming and you're cramming and they're telling you to not cram. I think the term is hyprocrisy? Anyway, well I figured out why it has to be this way. The previous generation is just trying to better the next generation. All the things they've done we're now doing and they're trying to prevent it from happening to us. Honestly, I don't know how I should react to this, whether to go with the flow, to be changed for the better, or to go against it, and be stubborn and remain the same.
That's it then! When faced with adversities, the instinct is to fight back. I don't want to, but I do. I don't mean to not do the things you tell me to do, it just looks something I have to fight against, anything that interferes with my easy going lifestyle is bad. It's something I can rebel against so I do.
I'm sorry for that.
I want to clean up my room, my life... and I will.
Cooling off now. I like blogging because it helps me get what I can't say out. That's probably why my voice cracks up when I do confessions because I'm not used to them being oral confessions. Also I guess the things you say did hurt because I knew they were true. I really do want to be better, hell, I want to be the best that ever was. But cleanliness is not the top priority for me. I get to cleaning around stuff. The laptop's desktop is clean, my pokeboxes are kinda clean, my schoolbags are organized-ish, my clothes are compartmentalized. It's just the table. That damn table that people can see. Really, it's all about appearances. If no one can see your good works, who can say you did good?
Let me give an opposing theory too, what if because you can see the mess it channels through your work. So messy scenery equal messy work. Hm... maybe if there were a study I would believe that. One more thing, I seem to like rules, or proof, or evidence. I just wanted to point that out.
Well thanks blogger. Hope my mom never sees this. I really ought to clean up my table now. Gahhhhhhhhhh. Fine! I'll do it. I can't go to the bowling later though because I don't want to anymore. And I won't go to the trick-or-treat tomorrow either because I didn't fix my costume in time and because currently I don't want to. And yeah live in the now, enjoy time right now. Your future is decided by your now anyway so why worry about the future. Actually screw that, don't worry about anything at all. Just do your stuff. Do it. All of it. But then more stuff comes. When will I be able to play until forever?
//END.
PS. I also like records of things that's why messy is nice. Messy means I was there, it means I've left a mark. BLAH BLAH Cleanliness can do that too -_-"
Since there's nothing wrong, what would I tell you?
Nothing. I can only tell you nothing.
Questions from you come and I don't have answers. So I answer I don't know. But maybe the right answer is just nothing. There was nothing to know and I knew that it was nothing so the answer shouldn't have been I don't know but nothing.
Well, that wasn't the argument anyway. You acknowledged my scholarship, you acknowledged my lack of vices, it's just that the cleanliness... then the waking up at the right time.
I know what to do. I know how to do it. I sometimes wish I didn't. I don't want to be labeled smart or intelligent, because those labels come with responsibilities, hell, all labels come with responsibilities.
Maybe I don't want that. I don't want responsibilities. Honestly, I just don't want anyone to think of me as their responsibility. I don't want to hinder anyone's growth because they're stuck worrying about me.
While we're switching topics randomly, let's have a go at this one. You know how it's unfair that your parents are cramming and you're cramming and they're telling you to not cram. I think the term is hyprocrisy? Anyway, well I figured out why it has to be this way. The previous generation is just trying to better the next generation. All the things they've done we're now doing and they're trying to prevent it from happening to us. Honestly, I don't know how I should react to this, whether to go with the flow, to be changed for the better, or to go against it, and be stubborn and remain the same.
That's it then! When faced with adversities, the instinct is to fight back. I don't want to, but I do. I don't mean to not do the things you tell me to do, it just looks something I have to fight against, anything that interferes with my easy going lifestyle is bad. It's something I can rebel against so I do.
I'm sorry for that.
I want to clean up my room, my life... and I will.
Cooling off now. I like blogging because it helps me get what I can't say out. That's probably why my voice cracks up when I do confessions because I'm not used to them being oral confessions. Also I guess the things you say did hurt because I knew they were true. I really do want to be better, hell, I want to be the best that ever was. But cleanliness is not the top priority for me. I get to cleaning around stuff. The laptop's desktop is clean, my pokeboxes are kinda clean, my schoolbags are organized-ish, my clothes are compartmentalized. It's just the table. That damn table that people can see. Really, it's all about appearances. If no one can see your good works, who can say you did good?
Let me give an opposing theory too, what if because you can see the mess it channels through your work. So messy scenery equal messy work. Hm... maybe if there were a study I would believe that. One more thing, I seem to like rules, or proof, or evidence. I just wanted to point that out.
Well thanks blogger. Hope my mom never sees this. I really ought to clean up my table now. Gahhhhhhhhhh. Fine! I'll do it. I can't go to the bowling later though because I don't want to anymore. And I won't go to the trick-or-treat tomorrow either because I didn't fix my costume in time and because currently I don't want to. And yeah live in the now, enjoy time right now. Your future is decided by your now anyway so why worry about the future. Actually screw that, don't worry about anything at all. Just do your stuff. Do it. All of it. But then more stuff comes. When will I be able to play until forever?
//END.
PS. I also like records of things that's why messy is nice. Messy means I was there, it means I've left a mark. BLAH BLAH Cleanliness can do that too -_-"
October 27, 2013
One week later posts.
I haven't been posting a lot. Not much to post about, meaning nothing going wrong in life. It's best to share negative things (rants) on the internet, as an "anonymous person", and to rave (positive rant, I think?) to people you know and care for... maybe?
I don't really know :)) but I do know that I broke my 3DS charger by trying to fix it today so yeah that's the worse news of the week, or since Finals I guess. I passed my Chemistry btw, I think I mentioned it before but yeah I haven't written anything in a week. Hm... let me blog a little more.
I love breaks. Semestral breaks and summer breaks enabled us to chat often and I miss that. I actually don't know if you can read this but I'm going to try, you can tell me anything. If you tell me to not judge you I won't, if you tell me not to tell anyone else, I won't.
I swear. I'm curious as hell though. I'm feeling a bit Feeler-ish right now that's why I'm posting this (lol LAN party). Anyway, if something comes out of this, that'll be something.
And now to be completely different... well not really?
~
I miss the feeling. Touching. Yeah, hugs, holding hands. Hugs are not exclusive to one person, nor is holding hands. I miss the sensation. No hidden meaning here, I miss those and kisses. Okay I'm just what the effing right now at myself, hell my sentence construction is turning horrible but I just remembered that I really miss those. But I'm not going into a relationship just for that. I'm not looking for a relationship right now because of that. I'm not looking for a relationship right now because I want to find that one girl. I'm pretty sure it could be anyone. I think soulmates are made. They're found because what you're looking for is what you see, and things you don't look for you're blinded from. Yeah, something like that. I don't want to proof read this block of text just to show how much sleep I lack.
Also, happy crushes are weird, and fun I guess. Just like wonder trade. But I can't have wonder trades... because it uses up too much battery, and I don't have a working charger T-T
~
Anyway, just a heads up, I've also been recently reintroduced to KPOP. Hey, don't judge! Mages can be mystified by hot girls who dance and sing well. Reintroduced because I explored it briefly then forget about it for awhile, and then was introduced to it again las month and now I'm in to it much more. Just to prove my point, SooYoung <3.
tl;dr
Nothing horribad to report since Finals.
I love you too, I think.
I miss Physical Touch.
The usual Relationship doubts.
SooYoung <3
PS I have updated my Laptop set-up and it is awesome. Also I'm now more inclined to using the :3 emoticon. I really like it's look on FB. Still hating the :O on FB though.
I don't really know :)) but I do know that I broke my 3DS charger by trying to fix it today so yeah that's the worse news of the week, or since Finals I guess. I passed my Chemistry btw, I think I mentioned it before but yeah I haven't written anything in a week. Hm... let me blog a little more.
I love breaks. Semestral breaks and summer breaks enabled us to chat often and I miss that. I actually don't know if you can read this but I'm going to try, you can tell me anything. If you tell me to not judge you I won't, if you tell me not to tell anyone else, I won't.
I swear. I'm curious as hell though. I'm feeling a bit Feeler-ish right now that's why I'm posting this (lol LAN party). Anyway, if something comes out of this, that'll be something.
And now to be completely different... well not really?
~
I miss the feeling. Touching. Yeah, hugs, holding hands. Hugs are not exclusive to one person, nor is holding hands. I miss the sensation. No hidden meaning here, I miss those and kisses. Okay I'm just what the effing right now at myself, hell my sentence construction is turning horrible but I just remembered that I really miss those. But I'm not going into a relationship just for that. I'm not looking for a relationship right now because of that. I'm not looking for a relationship right now because I want to find that one girl. I'm pretty sure it could be anyone. I think soulmates are made. They're found because what you're looking for is what you see, and things you don't look for you're blinded from. Yeah, something like that. I don't want to proof read this block of text just to show how much sleep I lack.
Also, happy crushes are weird, and fun I guess. Just like wonder trade. But I can't have wonder trades... because it uses up too much battery, and I don't have a working charger T-T
~
Anyway, just a heads up, I've also been recently reintroduced to KPOP. Hey, don't judge! Mages can be mystified by hot girls who dance and sing well. Reintroduced because I explored it briefly then forget about it for awhile, and then was introduced to it again las month and now I'm in to it much more. Just to prove my point, SooYoung <3.
tl;dr
Nothing horribad to report since Finals.
I love you too, I think.
I miss Physical Touch.
The usual Relationship doubts.
SooYoung <3
PS I have updated my Laptop set-up and it is awesome. Also I'm now more inclined to using the :3 emoticon. I really like it's look on FB. Still hating the :O on FB though.
October 19, 2013
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