CHEM GAMING AGAIN T-T
Can I skip the chemistry despite my end goal which is to become a biologist? Can I? Please?
Best to sleep now and study later eh? Apparently I only have two subjects tomorrow. The first at 7 am which I will be late for and may be able to cut. And another at 1pm which lasts until 4pm but should dismiss us a bit earlier. Then an exam at 6pm. So... Computing the time I may spend. 8:30am - 1:00pm break time = 5 and 1/2 hours of study / write notes / do prob set subtract an hour of eating and add 2 hours between 4pm and 6pm for some last minute cramming. I hope I can do it.
The goal is not to pass though... it's higher than that. And to get that goal I should've been preparing for this since the semester started. But I haven't and I feel guilty... but it's not too late. I can get the grade I want with the next two long tests and maybe finals if needed. But I won't let this first one be a waste of time. Still going to strive for excellence. I've got to. I want to. I will.
December 13, 2013
December 11, 2013
An update after that.
The amount of progress I achieve compared to the amount of time I spent getting the progress is less now than it was between the time I first posted last night and the after hour update. I don't know how I'll remedy this. Then again the previous progress was easy because it was mostly paraphrasing. Now it's time for analysis that I don't want to do. Ahahaha. Because I'm not sure how my professor wants it analyzed. I think I'll be staying up the whole night/morning because I have other stuff to do to. I guess I'll sleep during Physics? or actually every subject today. Sleeping in class is bad and I feel horrible for doing it no matter how refreshed I look / feel after waking up. I'M SORRY PROFS!
An Hour After Update.
Not exactly an hour but I may try the scheduling function. So I have a part of my paper. Probably the smallest part, in terms of points, but it's a start.
Took me almost an hour. Hopefully each section is like this too. Should be done in 3 hours then xD
It might have been the music that has been making me procrastinate. I'm probably not really a multi-tasker. Yeah... Maybe. Further testing needed... but not right now xD.
AND I ACTUALLY HAVE OTHER STUFF TO DO... other requirements other than this report T-T Hoping for the best xD Good luck to me! And to all who have requirements of any kind :3
Took me almost an hour. Hopefully each section is like this too. Should be done in 3 hours then xD
It might have been the music that has been making me procrastinate. I'm probably not really a multi-tasker. Yeah... Maybe. Further testing needed... but not right now xD.
AND I ACTUALLY HAVE OTHER STUFF TO DO... other requirements other than this report T-T Hoping for the best xD Good luck to me! And to all who have requirements of any kind :3
December 10, 2013
I don't know what I should do.
Actually I know what I should do. But I don't think I want to. Actually I don't want to do it.
I should do this report. But there is nothing hinging on it that makes it important. Hm... A scholarship maybe? I suppose that should be enough. But I think it generally won't affect my scholarship in any way. But it seems my image will be the most important thing this influences.
Not even my grades will be significantly changed by this. I hope at least. But there, yeah... my image. How I look to other people. I want to be the genius slacker. I want to slack. But I want to work. I should work. Plus, it might affect my view for future things I do. This might snowball into something I can't control anymore. So yeah. While I can still control it. I will do this thing. I'll have an update in an hour! :D
I should do this report. But there is nothing hinging on it that makes it important. Hm... A scholarship maybe? I suppose that should be enough. But I think it generally won't affect my scholarship in any way. But it seems my image will be the most important thing this influences.
Not even my grades will be significantly changed by this. I hope at least. But there, yeah... my image. How I look to other people. I want to be the genius slacker. I want to slack. But I want to work. I should work. Plus, it might affect my view for future things I do. This might snowball into something I can't control anymore. So yeah. While I can still control it. I will do this thing. I'll have an update in an hour! :D
Stahp :))
I always find that spelling funny :))
Though seriously! Stahp creativity xD Need logic or at least science-y stuff right now not creative stuff xD I'm willing to sacrifice one report if it helps study up for my lecture exam. IF. I don't think it will. So I won't sacrifice. Also the theme of the next thing I will write will be why the boy does not sleep. Yeah. Excuses story. I like fiction :3
Though seriously! Stahp creativity xD Need logic or at least science-y stuff right now not creative stuff xD I'm willing to sacrifice one report if it helps study up for my lecture exam. IF. I don't think it will. So I won't sacrifice. Also the theme of the next thing I will write will be why the boy does not sleep. Yeah. Excuses story. I like fiction :3
December 09, 2013
Overused Theme.
Back to my old ways T-T
I WANT TO PLAY. ONLY. Any job like that? Oh... become a youtuber? Er... pass xD
I like my lifestyle if I didn't have to do any papers. Just all my school stuff I do at school and at home I can just do whatever. Someday. That will be life. Work at work. Home at home. No work at home. Yeah...
I WANT TO PLAY. ONLY. Any job like that? Oh... become a youtuber? Er... pass xD
I like my lifestyle if I didn't have to do any papers. Just all my school stuff I do at school and at home I can just do whatever. Someday. That will be life. Work at work. Home at home. No work at home. Yeah...
December 04, 2013
1 hour update.
Well I figured out how to be make my antivirus severely less annoying, though the icon is still there, and yeah, OCD and stuff.
So yey, I've been working for awhile, but I don't think I will be able to fill another page. I don't think I want to expound on a lot of the stuff because I don't think it's necessary, but it is T-T. Anyway, I think the rest of the week is survivable. This report is the only thing that is prohibiting me from enjoying this week, maybe, I dunno. Or at least it's in the way of the things I actually want to do. Like play, and that physics prob set, or study, AND HOLY CRAP I STILL HAVE PHYSICS PROBLEM SET DUE TOMORROW/TODAY.
-_-" I hope I have time to cram later. Or should I cram it now? Or is Chem more important? T-T I don't know anymore. I think I have time later. I hope. I don't like cramming </3. But yeah there. WANT TO FREAKING PLAY. I'm somehow able to control myself though. Which is amazing xD. So yeah. Back to work hopefully. Goodbye 7am class. See you all at 10am :D hopefully earlier if I haven't done my prob set. PLAY. PLAY. I WANT TO PLAY. LET ME. PLEASE. SO EXCITED FOR DECEMBER BREAK AND SUMMER. Hopefully I can get out of my gaming phase by next year and then concentrate on studies until summer. HOPEFULLY.
So yey, I've been working for awhile, but I don't think I will be able to fill another page. I don't think I want to expound on a lot of the stuff because I don't think it's necessary, but it is T-T. Anyway, I think the rest of the week is survivable. This report is the only thing that is prohibiting me from enjoying this week, maybe, I dunno. Or at least it's in the way of the things I actually want to do. Like play, and that physics prob set, or study, AND HOLY CRAP I STILL HAVE PHYSICS PROBLEM SET DUE TOMORROW/TODAY.
-_-" I hope I have time to cram later. Or should I cram it now? Or is Chem more important? T-T I don't know anymore. I think I have time later. I hope. I don't like cramming </3. But yeah there. WANT TO FREAKING PLAY. I'm somehow able to control myself though. Which is amazing xD. So yeah. Back to work hopefully. Goodbye 7am class. See you all at 10am :D hopefully earlier if I haven't done my prob set. PLAY. PLAY. I WANT TO PLAY. LET ME. PLEASE. SO EXCITED FOR DECEMBER BREAK AND SUMMER. Hopefully I can get out of my gaming phase by next year and then concentrate on studies until summer. HOPEFULLY.
Someone Help Me Please.
This Antivirus is giving me a reason to procrastinate T-T
THIS SUCKS! GRARARAR. I hate, hate, hate plagiarism. But school turns us into people who care more about the grades, and less about the learning. Hoping for a future where people are motivated to study because they want to instead of studying because they want that job that pays well.
Still don't know if I'm in the right course but as I said, and as FE:A is actually supporting, there is no max level. I'm pretty sure I can go through all the job classes, get all the skills, max my stats, then pick the best skills after. I just have to grind. And grind. And grind. But damn, repetition isn't practice, and practice doesn't make perfect, practice makes permanent.
So damn these habits. Damn it. Just damn it. Grarararararararar.
MUST START ON THIS REPORT //
THIS SUCKS! GRARARAR. I hate, hate, hate plagiarism. But school turns us into people who care more about the grades, and less about the learning. Hoping for a future where people are motivated to study because they want to instead of studying because they want that job that pays well.
Still don't know if I'm in the right course but as I said, and as FE:A is actually supporting, there is no max level. I'm pretty sure I can go through all the job classes, get all the skills, max my stats, then pick the best skills after. I just have to grind. And grind. And grind. But damn, repetition isn't practice, and practice doesn't make perfect, practice makes permanent.
So damn these habits. Damn it. Just damn it. Grarararararararar.
MUST START ON THIS REPORT //
December 03, 2013
And It's Tomorrow.
HashTagMehMonday
Because I did nothing. Well, my DotA 2 score is now -1 but damn T-T Nothing academic at all :/ I'm sorry huhu. I wanted to do my stuff to make up for laziness but I didn't and now I'm double lazy or something.
GRARARARARARARAR. So yeah. Might do one last thing before bed. Something academic, then I'm out I think. I hope. I hope I finish too. I need to print something, so don't forget that.
Just want to say, Fire Emblem has so much of my hours, and not just game hours, my off game hours are towards FE:A recently. Just so much forum jumping and theoretical grinding, to make my save file awesome or something.
Still hoping my mom forgets to confiscate my 3DS tomorrow. But I have to finish my stuff, so it doesn't really matter if it's with me or not because I will finish my stuff before I play. Yes, I'm dedicated I think.
But it's not just Acads. I now have extra-curriculars and they're fun but it also takes so much time. I don't think I have time for anything else right now because I have to juggle a lot of stuff and want to put more time to the stuff I already have.
For my own reference my stuff is currently:
Family, Friends, Academics, Play, Pop Culture (right now it's SNSD, Catching Fire, I want to Legend of Korra, and I have some anime I want to do), then Facebook and internet.
Really hoping to cut the Facebook and Internet time and put more into Play and Pop Culture. I think I have enough time for Academics, I finish on time, and usually with the desired output, but I lack sleep T-T. Oh, except in Chem. I'm not good at not numbers Chem. Actually, logic Chem is alright, but not memorization Chem. T-T Oh yeah also Org. I have org stuff.
So no time for romance right now, which is alright with me. I think anime/kpop is a phase for people who are out of a relationship, maybe I dunno. I really don't get what other people do on their down time, if they're not playing games or watching anime/kpop, or reading books. Hm... actually just browsing through forums and FB takes time, so maybe that. But that's kinda lame because there's no character growth for them on Facebook. Thank God I have games :3
Well that's it, I have to work. T-T
//Two weeks 'til Christmas break. I don't know how I'll be able to stop playing for these two weeks. I have to though :/
Because I did nothing. Well, my DotA 2 score is now -1 but damn T-T Nothing academic at all :/ I'm sorry huhu. I wanted to do my stuff to make up for laziness but I didn't and now I'm double lazy or something.
GRARARARARARARAR. So yeah. Might do one last thing before bed. Something academic, then I'm out I think. I hope. I hope I finish too. I need to print something, so don't forget that.
Just want to say, Fire Emblem has so much of my hours, and not just game hours, my off game hours are towards FE:A recently. Just so much forum jumping and theoretical grinding, to make my save file awesome or something.
Still hoping my mom forgets to confiscate my 3DS tomorrow. But I have to finish my stuff, so it doesn't really matter if it's with me or not because I will finish my stuff before I play. Yes, I'm dedicated I think.
But it's not just Acads. I now have extra-curriculars and they're fun but it also takes so much time. I don't think I have time for anything else right now because I have to juggle a lot of stuff and want to put more time to the stuff I already have.
For my own reference my stuff is currently:
Family, Friends, Academics, Play, Pop Culture (right now it's SNSD, Catching Fire, I want to Legend of Korra, and I have some anime I want to do), then Facebook and internet.
Really hoping to cut the Facebook and Internet time and put more into Play and Pop Culture. I think I have enough time for Academics, I finish on time, and usually with the desired output, but I lack sleep T-T. Oh, except in Chem. I'm not good at not numbers Chem. Actually, logic Chem is alright, but not memorization Chem. T-T Oh yeah also Org. I have org stuff.
So no time for romance right now, which is alright with me. I think anime/kpop is a phase for people who are out of a relationship, maybe I dunno. I really don't get what other people do on their down time, if they're not playing games or watching anime/kpop, or reading books. Hm... actually just browsing through forums and FB takes time, so maybe that. But that's kinda lame because there's no character growth for them on Facebook. Thank God I have games :3
Well that's it, I have to work. T-T
//Two weeks 'til Christmas break. I don't know how I'll be able to stop playing for these two weeks. I have to though :/
November 27, 2013
Gaming Withdrawal.
I need to play. Help me please. Really. Someone. OMG. I want to play so bad. But school is in the way. I go cold turkey for a week and on Saturday I'm better, you know, cured. Then I play. I PLAY UNTIL IT'S TUESDAY. And then it's gone. I go on forums and wikis, but my thirst is not quenched.
GIVE ME MY GAMES. LET ME PLAY.
But I really have to do well in my acads T-T
Side note: The first time I learned that the word withdrawal could be used for drug addiction was when my character in Kingdom of Loathing (many many years back) used goofballs. Best. Trip. Ever.
GIVE ME MY GAMES. LET ME PLAY.
But I really have to do well in my acads T-T
Side note: The first time I learned that the word withdrawal could be used for drug addiction was when my character in Kingdom of Loathing (many many years back) used goofballs. Best. Trip. Ever.
November 14, 2013
Big plans?
Finished Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney: Dual Destinies a few hours ago and currently reading World War Z. Seems to me like it's both relevant to the current state of the Philippines. PW I guess with the Pork Barrel thing and WWZ with the whole disaster thing. Hoping WWZ sacrifice plans won't succeed while PW bring the justice plot works out.
Don't really know how to explain more because it's almost 1AM and I should not be online T-T. Also, the title is when some kind of aura-reader/psychic/soul-see-er kind of lady told my mom that I had big plans... maybe President of the Philippines? :)) Cancel classes whenever it rains :3
BUT DAMMIT WHY AREN'T THE PEOPLE GETTING THEIR FOOD. WHY ARE THEY DYING OF STARVATION. WHY?
Don't really know how to explain more because it's almost 1AM and I should not be online T-T. Also, the title is when some kind of aura-reader/psychic/soul-see-er kind of lady told my mom that I had big plans... maybe President of the Philippines? :)) Cancel classes whenever it rains :3
BUT DAMMIT WHY AREN'T THE PEOPLE GETTING THEIR FOOD. WHY ARE THEY DYING OF STARVATION. WHY?
November 10, 2013
Happy KB!
I will leave this note here for my death dream and interesting theory on what happens before.
In other news, Batman game is awesome game. And I still haven't finished Ace Attorney Dual Destinies despite getting over the Pokemon Craze. I just realized my WF schedules are the same as last sem (my classes are even in the same building) except I have Physics in place of last sem's lunch time. My TTh is free-er though with a break right after math, but it's still an 8:30 to night kind of schedule.
I want to buy a ukulele I think. But I will keep it at home and I will hide it from the world and bring it only for special occasions or something. But I will practice. Whee~
For things that are wrong with me... hm... I seem to have gotten fatter? Not too wrong I suppose, my belly has grown though, I think. Though I feel bloated often. Yeah I dunno.
This is just me not having anything interesting/artistic to post. I don't have any love-related issues recently which is fine with me :)) It's like that movie with the writers I guess? I don't have inspiration for creative posts. Is it because of a lack of er... a Person of Interest or maybe it's due to excessive gaming? Don't really think it's because of gaming though. Hm...
I also have to fix something with some friends I think. It's a problem for me because it's a problem between two of my friends. Yeah, that's something to worry about right? Er... well, worrying is bad I guess but I suppose it's the first step to doing something about it. Acknowledging the worry is probably the second. So yeah, will do something about it. I miss them yeah. I miss hanging out with them. With both of them.
//Oh the title is just referencing a High School Running Gag I guess. It's supposedly his birthday everyday :)) Well today's for real. KB!
In other news, Batman game is awesome game. And I still haven't finished Ace Attorney Dual Destinies despite getting over the Pokemon Craze. I just realized my WF schedules are the same as last sem (my classes are even in the same building) except I have Physics in place of last sem's lunch time. My TTh is free-er though with a break right after math, but it's still an 8:30 to night kind of schedule.
I want to buy a ukulele I think. But I will keep it at home and I will hide it from the world and bring it only for special occasions or something. But I will practice. Whee~
For things that are wrong with me... hm... I seem to have gotten fatter? Not too wrong I suppose, my belly has grown though, I think. Though I feel bloated often. Yeah I dunno.
This is just me not having anything interesting/artistic to post. I don't have any love-related issues recently which is fine with me :)) It's like that movie with the writers I guess? I don't have inspiration for creative posts. Is it because of a lack of er... a Person of Interest or maybe it's due to excessive gaming? Don't really think it's because of gaming though. Hm...
I also have to fix something with some friends I think. It's a problem for me because it's a problem between two of my friends. Yeah, that's something to worry about right? Er... well, worrying is bad I guess but I suppose it's the first step to doing something about it. Acknowledging the worry is probably the second. So yeah, will do something about it. I miss them yeah. I miss hanging out with them. With both of them.
//Oh the title is just referencing a High School Running Gag I guess. It's supposedly his birthday everyday :)) Well today's for real. KB!
October 30, 2013
Thoughts on Cleaning my Room.
Woohoo the table's clean! Where's my bed?! -_-"
Alright the bed's good. Now I can't see the floor -_-"
Alright I can see the floor, but I can see dust bunnies too. -_-"
Room's Clean xD
What now?
Now my life is meaningless T-T
Whee more Pokemon~
Alright the bed's good. Now I can't see the floor -_-"
Alright I can see the floor, but I can see dust bunnies too. -_-"
Room's Clean xD
What now?
Now my life is meaningless T-T
Whee more Pokemon~
Clutter.
If there were something wrong, I'd tell you.
Since there's nothing wrong, what would I tell you?
Nothing. I can only tell you nothing.
Questions from you come and I don't have answers. So I answer I don't know. But maybe the right answer is just nothing. There was nothing to know and I knew that it was nothing so the answer shouldn't have been I don't know but nothing.
Well, that wasn't the argument anyway. You acknowledged my scholarship, you acknowledged my lack of vices, it's just that the cleanliness... then the waking up at the right time.
I know what to do. I know how to do it. I sometimes wish I didn't. I don't want to be labeled smart or intelligent, because those labels come with responsibilities, hell, all labels come with responsibilities.
Maybe I don't want that. I don't want responsibilities. Honestly, I just don't want anyone to think of me as their responsibility. I don't want to hinder anyone's growth because they're stuck worrying about me.
While we're switching topics randomly, let's have a go at this one. You know how it's unfair that your parents are cramming and you're cramming and they're telling you to not cram. I think the term is hyprocrisy? Anyway, well I figured out why it has to be this way. The previous generation is just trying to better the next generation. All the things they've done we're now doing and they're trying to prevent it from happening to us. Honestly, I don't know how I should react to this, whether to go with the flow, to be changed for the better, or to go against it, and be stubborn and remain the same.
That's it then! When faced with adversities, the instinct is to fight back. I don't want to, but I do. I don't mean to not do the things you tell me to do, it just looks something I have to fight against, anything that interferes with my easy going lifestyle is bad. It's something I can rebel against so I do.
I'm sorry for that.
I want to clean up my room, my life... and I will.
Cooling off now. I like blogging because it helps me get what I can't say out. That's probably why my voice cracks up when I do confessions because I'm not used to them being oral confessions. Also I guess the things you say did hurt because I knew they were true. I really do want to be better, hell, I want to be the best that ever was. But cleanliness is not the top priority for me. I get to cleaning around stuff. The laptop's desktop is clean, my pokeboxes are kinda clean, my schoolbags are organized-ish, my clothes are compartmentalized. It's just the table. That damn table that people can see. Really, it's all about appearances. If no one can see your good works, who can say you did good?
Let me give an opposing theory too, what if because you can see the mess it channels through your work. So messy scenery equal messy work. Hm... maybe if there were a study I would believe that. One more thing, I seem to like rules, or proof, or evidence. I just wanted to point that out.
Well thanks blogger. Hope my mom never sees this. I really ought to clean up my table now. Gahhhhhhhhhh. Fine! I'll do it. I can't go to the bowling later though because I don't want to anymore. And I won't go to the trick-or-treat tomorrow either because I didn't fix my costume in time and because currently I don't want to. And yeah live in the now, enjoy time right now. Your future is decided by your now anyway so why worry about the future. Actually screw that, don't worry about anything at all. Just do your stuff. Do it. All of it. But then more stuff comes. When will I be able to play until forever?
//END.
PS. I also like records of things that's why messy is nice. Messy means I was there, it means I've left a mark. BLAH BLAH Cleanliness can do that too -_-"
Since there's nothing wrong, what would I tell you?
Nothing. I can only tell you nothing.
Questions from you come and I don't have answers. So I answer I don't know. But maybe the right answer is just nothing. There was nothing to know and I knew that it was nothing so the answer shouldn't have been I don't know but nothing.
Well, that wasn't the argument anyway. You acknowledged my scholarship, you acknowledged my lack of vices, it's just that the cleanliness... then the waking up at the right time.
I know what to do. I know how to do it. I sometimes wish I didn't. I don't want to be labeled smart or intelligent, because those labels come with responsibilities, hell, all labels come with responsibilities.
Maybe I don't want that. I don't want responsibilities. Honestly, I just don't want anyone to think of me as their responsibility. I don't want to hinder anyone's growth because they're stuck worrying about me.
While we're switching topics randomly, let's have a go at this one. You know how it's unfair that your parents are cramming and you're cramming and they're telling you to not cram. I think the term is hyprocrisy? Anyway, well I figured out why it has to be this way. The previous generation is just trying to better the next generation. All the things they've done we're now doing and they're trying to prevent it from happening to us. Honestly, I don't know how I should react to this, whether to go with the flow, to be changed for the better, or to go against it, and be stubborn and remain the same.
That's it then! When faced with adversities, the instinct is to fight back. I don't want to, but I do. I don't mean to not do the things you tell me to do, it just looks something I have to fight against, anything that interferes with my easy going lifestyle is bad. It's something I can rebel against so I do.
I'm sorry for that.
I want to clean up my room, my life... and I will.
Cooling off now. I like blogging because it helps me get what I can't say out. That's probably why my voice cracks up when I do confessions because I'm not used to them being oral confessions. Also I guess the things you say did hurt because I knew they were true. I really do want to be better, hell, I want to be the best that ever was. But cleanliness is not the top priority for me. I get to cleaning around stuff. The laptop's desktop is clean, my pokeboxes are kinda clean, my schoolbags are organized-ish, my clothes are compartmentalized. It's just the table. That damn table that people can see. Really, it's all about appearances. If no one can see your good works, who can say you did good?
Let me give an opposing theory too, what if because you can see the mess it channels through your work. So messy scenery equal messy work. Hm... maybe if there were a study I would believe that. One more thing, I seem to like rules, or proof, or evidence. I just wanted to point that out.
Well thanks blogger. Hope my mom never sees this. I really ought to clean up my table now. Gahhhhhhhhhh. Fine! I'll do it. I can't go to the bowling later though because I don't want to anymore. And I won't go to the trick-or-treat tomorrow either because I didn't fix my costume in time and because currently I don't want to. And yeah live in the now, enjoy time right now. Your future is decided by your now anyway so why worry about the future. Actually screw that, don't worry about anything at all. Just do your stuff. Do it. All of it. But then more stuff comes. When will I be able to play until forever?
//END.
PS. I also like records of things that's why messy is nice. Messy means I was there, it means I've left a mark. BLAH BLAH Cleanliness can do that too -_-"
October 27, 2013
One week later posts.
I haven't been posting a lot. Not much to post about, meaning nothing going wrong in life. It's best to share negative things (rants) on the internet, as an "anonymous person", and to rave (positive rant, I think?) to people you know and care for... maybe?
I don't really know :)) but I do know that I broke my 3DS charger by trying to fix it today so yeah that's the worse news of the week, or since Finals I guess. I passed my Chemistry btw, I think I mentioned it before but yeah I haven't written anything in a week. Hm... let me blog a little more.
I love breaks. Semestral breaks and summer breaks enabled us to chat often and I miss that. I actually don't know if you can read this but I'm going to try, you can tell me anything. If you tell me to not judge you I won't, if you tell me not to tell anyone else, I won't.
I swear. I'm curious as hell though. I'm feeling a bit Feeler-ish right now that's why I'm posting this (lol LAN party). Anyway, if something comes out of this, that'll be something.
And now to be completely different... well not really?
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I miss the feeling. Touching. Yeah, hugs, holding hands. Hugs are not exclusive to one person, nor is holding hands. I miss the sensation. No hidden meaning here, I miss those and kisses. Okay I'm just what the effing right now at myself, hell my sentence construction is turning horrible but I just remembered that I really miss those. But I'm not going into a relationship just for that. I'm not looking for a relationship right now because of that. I'm not looking for a relationship right now because I want to find that one girl. I'm pretty sure it could be anyone. I think soulmates are made. They're found because what you're looking for is what you see, and things you don't look for you're blinded from. Yeah, something like that. I don't want to proof read this block of text just to show how much sleep I lack.
Also, happy crushes are weird, and fun I guess. Just like wonder trade. But I can't have wonder trades... because it uses up too much battery, and I don't have a working charger T-T
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Anyway, just a heads up, I've also been recently reintroduced to KPOP. Hey, don't judge! Mages can be mystified by hot girls who dance and sing well. Reintroduced because I explored it briefly then forget about it for awhile, and then was introduced to it again las month and now I'm in to it much more. Just to prove my point, SooYoung <3.
tl;dr
Nothing horribad to report since Finals.
I love you too, I think.
I miss Physical Touch.
The usual Relationship doubts.
SooYoung <3
PS I have updated my Laptop set-up and it is awesome. Also I'm now more inclined to using the :3 emoticon. I really like it's look on FB. Still hating the :O on FB though.
I don't really know :)) but I do know that I broke my 3DS charger by trying to fix it today so yeah that's the worse news of the week, or since Finals I guess. I passed my Chemistry btw, I think I mentioned it before but yeah I haven't written anything in a week. Hm... let me blog a little more.
I love breaks. Semestral breaks and summer breaks enabled us to chat often and I miss that. I actually don't know if you can read this but I'm going to try, you can tell me anything. If you tell me to not judge you I won't, if you tell me not to tell anyone else, I won't.
I swear. I'm curious as hell though. I'm feeling a bit Feeler-ish right now that's why I'm posting this (lol LAN party). Anyway, if something comes out of this, that'll be something.
And now to be completely different... well not really?
~
I miss the feeling. Touching. Yeah, hugs, holding hands. Hugs are not exclusive to one person, nor is holding hands. I miss the sensation. No hidden meaning here, I miss those and kisses. Okay I'm just what the effing right now at myself, hell my sentence construction is turning horrible but I just remembered that I really miss those. But I'm not going into a relationship just for that. I'm not looking for a relationship right now because of that. I'm not looking for a relationship right now because I want to find that one girl. I'm pretty sure it could be anyone. I think soulmates are made. They're found because what you're looking for is what you see, and things you don't look for you're blinded from. Yeah, something like that. I don't want to proof read this block of text just to show how much sleep I lack.
Also, happy crushes are weird, and fun I guess. Just like wonder trade. But I can't have wonder trades... because it uses up too much battery, and I don't have a working charger T-T
~
Anyway, just a heads up, I've also been recently reintroduced to KPOP. Hey, don't judge! Mages can be mystified by hot girls who dance and sing well. Reintroduced because I explored it briefly then forget about it for awhile, and then was introduced to it again las month and now I'm in to it much more. Just to prove my point, SooYoung <3.
tl;dr
Nothing horribad to report since Finals.
I love you too, I think.
I miss Physical Touch.
The usual Relationship doubts.
SooYoung <3
PS I have updated my Laptop set-up and it is awesome. Also I'm now more inclined to using the :3 emoticon. I really like it's look on FB. Still hating the :O on FB though.
October 03, 2013
You guessed right!
That was not a shock to me. Honestly, I find comfort that you know and you remember. I can't believe I've had my reservations with trusting you with the not always happy stuff. So, thanks. I'm pretty sure you'll never read this, but my thoughts are with you. It's my way of saying I'll think of you, er... rather, I am concerned with you. Look I can't explain it :)) when I place my fingers on my forehead and then give it to your direction, it's to say goodbye, and I hope you'll be well. I DUNNO I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT ALRIGHT?! It's definitely something new I picked up. Or made up. Whatever. Just yeah.
In unrelated news, I am not nervous about my bio exam today. It's like the acceptance of my chem score is just shielding me from any kind of other emotion aside from those positive ones. It's nice I guess? I don't feel stressed. But I also don't feel the urgency to study. I'm done studying though, at least that's what I feel. I don't trust it though but whatever :)) Just yeah. Good luck to all of us taking the exam, and all of us who have exams (and other requirements) in the near future! Let's do well and have fun!
Also, I need Pokemon XY now T-T Please. Will probably get X? And buy Y later when I have a chance to borrow another 3DS. And we'll all be excited for Z. SO MUCH GAMES. I'M SO EXCITED. AHAHAHAHA.
In unrelated news, I am not nervous about my bio exam today. It's like the acceptance of my chem score is just shielding me from any kind of other emotion aside from those positive ones. It's nice I guess? I don't feel stressed. But I also don't feel the urgency to study. I'm done studying though, at least that's what I feel. I don't trust it though but whatever :)) Just yeah. Good luck to all of us taking the exam, and all of us who have exams (and other requirements) in the near future! Let's do well and have fun!
Also, I need Pokemon XY now T-T Please. Will probably get X? And buy Y later when I have a chance to borrow another 3DS. And we'll all be excited for Z. SO MUCH GAMES. I'M SO EXCITED. AHAHAHAHA.
October 01, 2013
Not for me, but for others.
I think that especially in my School right now, failing should never be an option. Failing means you have to take the subject again the next semester and that wastes one slot while using up another. The failed slot is wasted, money is wasted, the time is wasted, the effort of people lining up to take that slot is wasted.
So don't fail not only because your scholarship depends on it, not only because your parents are working hard for your tuition, not only because it'll look horrible on your resume, not only because you'll look bad in front of your friends, but because you don't want to waste the slot you got. Getting their slot could equate to them being delayed, them wasting more money, and time, and effort, because you didn't pass. Try to get that off your conscience, it's hard really.
So M please don't fail. Study Well. Try a few days before. Especially because both Finals fall on the same day.
BUT SERIOUSLY WTH HAPPENED I CAN'T BELIEVE I BARELY GOT 1/3 OF THE TOTAL OF THE 2ND TEST OUT OF TWO. MY OVERALL TOTAL ISN'T EVEN 50% T-T THERE HAS TO BE SOME MISTAKE :| ME HOPES. AND ME WISHES. AND ME WILL DO WELL WHETHER OR NOT THERE IS MISTAKE (well there are a lot of wrong answers definitely, but I was sure I had enough to pass -_-")
idontwanttofail.icanlearnwithoutfailingright?helpmeplease.screworganicchemistrylectureclasses.labismylove.creys.
So don't fail not only because your scholarship depends on it, not only because your parents are working hard for your tuition, not only because it'll look horrible on your resume, not only because you'll look bad in front of your friends, but because you don't want to waste the slot you got. Getting their slot could equate to them being delayed, them wasting more money, and time, and effort, because you didn't pass. Try to get that off your conscience, it's hard really.
So M please don't fail. Study Well. Try a few days before. Especially because both Finals fall on the same day.
BUT SERIOUSLY WTH HAPPENED I CAN'T BELIEVE I BARELY GOT 1/3 OF THE TOTAL OF THE 2ND TEST OUT OF TWO. MY OVERALL TOTAL ISN'T EVEN 50% T-T THERE HAS TO BE SOME MISTAKE :| ME HOPES. AND ME WISHES. AND ME WILL DO WELL WHETHER OR NOT THERE IS MISTAKE (well there are a lot of wrong answers definitely, but I was sure I had enough to pass -_-")
idontwanttofail.icanlearnwithoutfailingright?helpmeplease.screworganicchemistrylectureclasses.labismylove.creys.
September 02, 2013
I'm pretty sure I haven't yet.
I have not said anything against you I think. If I have then pardon me. But if you tell me not to say anything I won't. You're my friend. I'm your friend. I won't tell them.
And yet I'm a hypocrite. I hang with them. Actually I just really hanging out where everybody is at. Except that's them... that's us. That should be EVERYBODY. Every-freaking-one of us. I shouldn't probably even matter because of my state right now.
Things should get fixed, and everyone should just help everyone get better together. Benefit of the doubt. Always be the bigger man.
Unless it's that 10B scammer person, in which case, just make her pay for what she did. And then forget about her. But pursue everybody else who was involved... better yet pursue everybody who was in the same condition as her.
~
Confrontation is big because you avoided the small arguments before. Woman up and face it, I think. I know I wouldn't want to either, but there'll be people who will be there for you. I'm here. They should all be there, not waiting for your fall, but to pick you up and bring you to where their standards lie.
That's the system... the majority rules :/ and regarding the 10B scammer people, the majority of their money is what makes them rule :(
And yet I'm a hypocrite. I hang with them. Actually I just really hanging out where everybody is at. Except that's them... that's us. That should be EVERYBODY. Every-freaking-one of us. I shouldn't probably even matter because of my state right now.
Things should get fixed, and everyone should just help everyone get better together. Benefit of the doubt. Always be the bigger man.
Unless it's that 10B scammer person, in which case, just make her pay for what she did. And then forget about her. But pursue everybody else who was involved... better yet pursue everybody who was in the same condition as her.
~
Confrontation is big because you avoided the small arguments before. Woman up and face it, I think. I know I wouldn't want to either, but there'll be people who will be there for you. I'm here. They should all be there, not waiting for your fall, but to pick you up and bring you to where their standards lie.
That's the system... the majority rules :/ and regarding the 10B scammer people, the majority of their money is what makes them rule :(
August 24, 2013
August 15, 2013
Apparently Post 309
Impressive, 2 years and this blog is relatively alive. This won't probably be the best summary of my life starting 3rd year especially since I don't blog about everything... but I'm proud that it's here and that somehow, some of my thoughts will live on. This is the first step I guess, to just write, and speak out one's mind. The next would be to actually voice out so that maybe even if only one person listens, I will have had an impact on this world.
I think I want to lead, and I want to research. And new biostat teacher is inspiring T-T
Also, apparently instead of looking for the something you truly love, you can actually just do something you can and choose to love it truly. No work is for naught, and if you work for something, you'll definitely get something' (something not necessarily equal to something'). It's growth though, definitely, or it's the start of growth.
Also, Ukulele Fever subsiding. I hope!
//or it MAY be Post 310!!! :>
I think I want to lead, and I want to research. And new biostat teacher is inspiring T-T
Also, apparently instead of looking for the something you truly love, you can actually just do something you can and choose to love it truly. No work is for naught, and if you work for something, you'll definitely get something' (something not necessarily equal to something'). It's growth though, definitely, or it's the start of growth.
Also, Ukulele Fever subsiding. I hope!
//or it MAY be Post 310!!! :>
August 12, 2013
I still don't want to go to school tomorrow.
Because there is nothing I did for the week. I wanna pass on school tomorrow. And just keep being asleep. Or better yet Imma wake, and do my stuff. Oh why does school have to be so rough. Oh, I still don't want to go to school tomorrow.
I have a tune in my head but I'll likely forget. Oh well.
I have a tune in my head but I'll likely forget. Oh well.
August 05, 2013
I should at least try, right?
Seriously T-T I should go to sleep earlier. maybe, just maybe.
Gonna try!
Gonna try!
August 04, 2013
August 03, 2013
Because French is amazing.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amateur
Learn it*, Live it**, Love it***.
HashTagWordoftheDay
Also, there's a butterfly in my room. It looks great but I only have my phone camera. It's alright... just alright, and my hands shake when doing something delicate, so no clear pictures from me :))
*it = the word amateur
**it = your amateur side
*** it = everything you do
Learn it*, Live it**, Love it***.
HashTagWordoftheDay
Also, there's a butterfly in my room. It looks great but I only have my phone camera. It's alright... just alright, and my hands shake when doing something delicate, so no clear pictures from me :))
*it = the word amateur
**it = your amateur side
*** it = everything you do
I wonder, Y.
F(x). Y.
Nope, no math this semester. Just contemplating what moves I want to make. Blitzkrieg or what?
EDIT: This post is horrible, the topic will be covered when the my need to sleep is an urgent concern.
Nope, no math this semester. Just contemplating what moves I want to make. Blitzkrieg or what?
EDIT: This post is horrible, the topic will be covered when the my need to sleep is an urgent concern.
August 02, 2013
Wait, wait, wait.
No word in English can describe that shivery feeling you get when you look at her and talk to her.
Ahahahaha. Such a feeling should be experienced by all. Also, damn! Right before an important test too :)) Gahhh!
Ahahahaha. Such a feeling should be experienced by all. Also, damn! Right before an important test too :)) Gahhh!
August 01, 2013
Not In Despair.
Weird. I should be panicking, like really panicking, about my chemistry problem set due tomorrow, but I'm not. I don't know why-y! If our love~ is tragedy, why are you my remedy~? If our love's~ insanity, why are you my remedy~?
Seriously, though. It's only in my Chemistry subject now, that I'm not worried about. I'm not failing, but I'm not passing with flying colors either. I guess it's just I don't really know what I'm up against because I'll only be taking the tests for these next week. It sucks because I don't know how I'm doing because I'm feeling great about it and yet I can't even answer this problem set without doubting my answer. I think I can definitely relearn this, like learn this by heart, over the weekend. Yeah, Tiwala*.
Also, I keep missing my chance to Throwback Thursday T-T. Oh well.
And note to self: You have Saturday stuff to do. SO DO IT! Not much play for you! You may enjoy after the Chem Long Tests. Hooray for staying awake during your Bio Class! (Seriously, that's a real improvement! :D) Gambatte!
*Tiwala ~ Faith. It's my current motto right now :D
Seriously, though. It's only in my Chemistry subject now, that I'm not worried about. I'm not failing, but I'm not passing with flying colors either. I guess it's just I don't really know what I'm up against because I'll only be taking the tests for these next week. It sucks because I don't know how I'm doing because I'm feeling great about it and yet I can't even answer this problem set without doubting my answer. I think I can definitely relearn this, like learn this by heart, over the weekend. Yeah, Tiwala*.
Also, I keep missing my chance to Throwback Thursday T-T. Oh well.
And note to self: You have Saturday stuff to do. SO DO IT! Not much play for you! You may enjoy after the Chem Long Tests. Hooray for staying awake during your Bio Class! (Seriously, that's a real improvement! :D) Gambatte!
*Tiwala ~ Faith. It's my current motto right now :D
July 31, 2013
I don't have any creative titles.
I figured if I kept typing and typing posts I'd have something to talk about but I guess not. Honestly, even on this I'm starting to procrastinate. Doing subpar posts (maybe, like this one? I dunno) not having a point or anything. It's like I get lazy halfway through. That, or I get distracted. I should probably study. And make writing a habit. And develop other habits after that. Like sleeping, not in class, and doing requirements.
July 29, 2013
Chilling.
Nice er... um... drinking chilling with you guys :D I would rather not do it again because I learned so much and yet I contributed nothing. Plus I don't wanna chill all the time. At least, not that way. So yeah. Also, "at least" is definitely two words. Woah. Anyway, I must start on whatever I should cram. Plus, I should study my org stuff. Hooray for applying to an Org :D
July 28, 2013
Go To Sleep.
No, not the creepy pasta...
Well, damn. If you read it, there's no sleeping now.
Maybe I should've had the disclaimer up top. Oh well.
Well, damn. If you read it, there's no sleeping now.
Maybe I should've had the disclaimer up top. Oh well.
July 27, 2013
Last-minute last-minute grinding.
Tomorrow. I hope.
We'll see. Backwards this time. I think. And maybe with paper.
//GOOD LUCK GOOD NIGHT GAMBATTE MAY THE ODDS BE EVER INYOUR FAVOR
//Goal: Finals Exemption for Hardest Bio (yes, this one)
//Goal for tomorrow's test: Pass. And start anew with botany.
FAITH.
We'll see. Backwards this time. I think. And maybe with paper.
//GOOD LUCK GOOD NIGHT GAMBATTE MAY THE ODDS BE EVER IN
//Goal: Finals Exemption for Hardest Bio (yes, this one)
//Goal for tomorrow's test: Pass. And start anew with botany.
FAITH.
July 26, 2013
Grinding.
I didn't read listen to the manual, now I'm doing some last minute grinding.
You know how the heroes go into battle sometimes with a super powerful foe and they lose the first time around, but they strive to get better and best the enemy during the epic rematch?
I don't want that right now. I want to win the first time through. Though you know in a sort of underdog kind of way. So yeah I'm going to prepare now. This battle I must fight, though my sword and shield be of small might. It is my will that will get me through, because I believe; and thisbelief faith will do.
Actually, I will have to do, but thebelief faith will be enough help. I forgot the English translation I thought up
Faith and Persistence.
//Tiwala at Tiyaga
//Pray for me and my Bio Lec Exam tomorrow, and all those who are taking the test really.
You know how the heroes go into battle sometimes with a super powerful foe and they lose the first time around, but they strive to get better and best the enemy during the epic rematch?
I don't want that right now. I want to win the first time through. Though you know in a sort of underdog kind of way. So yeah I'm going to prepare now. This battle I must fight, though my sword and shield be of small might. It is my will that will get me through, because I believe; and this
Actually, I will have to do, but the
Faith and Persistence.
//Tiwala at Tiyaga
//Pray for me and my Bio Lec Exam tomorrow, and all those who are taking the test really.
July 25, 2013
July 24, 2013
Be careful of what you wish for...
Because you'll sound cliche when you say that phrase and end it with because you just might get it... just might get it.
It'sAdventure Hero Study Time!
It's
July 18, 2013
Survive this week.
And the next week, and the next week, and the next week.
Dammit, I want to live T-T Weekends were not meant to be no work days.
CH<\NGE!!!
Dammit, I want to live T-T Weekends were not meant to be no work days.
CH<\NGE!!!
July 15, 2013
It's never too late.
Procrastination. I hate procrastination. I do it all the time. Time. Something you have lots of then something you don't have when you procrastinate.
I also forgot to celebrate my first whole year with braces. Hooray or something, that I didn't starve to death and now my teeth are aligned and stuff. Just need to close the gaps I think, and maybe get rid of some wisdom teeth. I really hope no wisdom is stored in wisdom teeth. Instead, the moment they grow it's like a new piece of wisdom is added to your wisdom bank. And the tooth, or the lack of the tooth, becomes a reminder that you have gained some wisdom. But which one did you gain? Does it even matter?
Well, now, I'm done procrastinating. Hooray again, or something! :D
I WILL FINISH YOU BIO AND CHEM. ONE AT A TIME.
Oh yeah! Nice chatting with you again. Gave me an opportunity to procrastinate just a bit more so that I finally reach my "NoMoreProcrastination Threshold".
I also forgot to celebrate my first whole year with braces. Hooray or something, that I didn't starve to death and now my teeth are aligned and stuff. Just need to close the gaps I think, and maybe get rid of some wisdom teeth. I really hope no wisdom is stored in wisdom teeth. Instead, the moment they grow it's like a new piece of wisdom is added to your wisdom bank. And the tooth, or the lack of the tooth, becomes a reminder that you have gained some wisdom. But which one did you gain? Does it even matter?
Well, now, I'm done procrastinating. Hooray again, or something! :D
I WILL FINISH YOU BIO AND CHEM. ONE AT A TIME.
Oh yeah! Nice chatting with you again. Gave me an opportunity to procrastinate just a bit more so that I finally reach my "NoMoreProcrastination Threshold".
July 12, 2013
Because I need to tell someone.
Someone remind me to write a Thank you Letter to the world for putting up with my 18 years on this planet.
July 10, 2013
July 07, 2013
June 30, 2013
Lost in Remembrance.
It's never true in your memories. Too much remembering will make you forget. What you know is not what is. It's not even what was. It is... hm... what is/was it?
June 28, 2013
Choice.
With: Family and Friends, Academics, Personal Enjoyment.
Without: Sleep T-T
//Also possible choices, Love Life and Looks. And maybe Money? But I'm not particularly concerned about these.
//I can't have it all... atleast, not yet.
Without: Sleep T-T
//Also possible choices, Love Life and Looks. And maybe Money? But I'm not particularly concerned about these.
//I can't have it all... atleast, not yet.
Chocolate.
Chocolate is sometimes sweet, sometimes bitter. Sometimes white, sometimes dark. Chocolate is something you'd give to someone you love.
At the end of the day, or any time of the day actually, you can just think to yourself...
Chocolate is amazing.
//Chocolate could be replaced with Life or Love, I think.
//I wonder what other things you can describe like chocolate...
At the end of the day, or any time of the day actually, you can just think to yourself...
Chocolate is amazing.
//Chocolate could be replaced with Life or Love, I think.
//I wonder what other things you can describe like chocolate...
June 26, 2013
Teacher, Instructor?
Some professors are teachers. Some are instructors. How different is an instructor from a teacher really?
I just hope at the end of the day my teachers will remember me fondly. I think I'll remember them too. I really like getting to know a teacher I think. Maybe especially because it lessens the chance to be scolded for being slightly noisy during class. Plus, I think I give those teachers more respect. For me, kindness is repaid with respect. Authority, yeah sure, respect. But yeah kindness, respect.
//For once, I was able to study. Just a bit more reviewing tomorrow and I'll be good to go. Maybe I should read some Art Studies before I sleep. Maybe.
I just hope at the end of the day my teachers will remember me fondly. I think I'll remember them too. I really like getting to know a teacher I think. Maybe especially because it lessens the chance to be scolded for being slightly noisy during class. Plus, I think I give those teachers more respect. For me, kindness is repaid with respect. Authority, yeah sure, respect. But yeah kindness, respect.
//For once, I was able to study. Just a bit more reviewing tomorrow and I'll be good to go. Maybe I should read some Art Studies before I sleep. Maybe.
I'm not feeling the creative juices flowing.
I just better start studying / reviewing. Maybe more studying. grar
June 25, 2013
Nostalgia, Pastiche.
That's what's up with all these movie remakes and stuff. Well that's what my Art Studies professor believes.
Nostalgia seems like a pretty accurate reason. It seems it and pastiche is really what affects what humans want / like in life. It's kinda creepy. Your memory is either better or worse than the actual memory itself. That's why you remember it. Pastiche... I guess I need more real-life experience with that but yeah Zombie Movies are cool :))
//Not much of a post, possibly a reminder of some sort. For future reference maybe?
Nostalgia seems like a pretty accurate reason. It seems it and pastiche is really what affects what humans want / like in life. It's kinda creepy. Your memory is either better or worse than the actual memory itself. That's why you remember it. Pastiche... I guess I need more real-life experience with that but yeah Zombie Movies are cool :))
//Not much of a post, possibly a reminder of some sort. For future reference maybe?
June 24, 2013
Why am I still awake? o.o
Also...
FEELS?!
Pass.
//Holy crap that's selfish. That's amazing. That's wow. That's sure-ist? :))
//You know, if I were offline right now I needn't be concerned with such trivial things. Wait... nevermind. I forgot notifications are well... damn. :))
//DOUBLE POST + TRIPLE EDITS?! IMBA. GO TO SLEEP. < Art thou feeling it now Mr. Krabs?
FEELS?!
Pass.
//Holy crap that's selfish. That's amazing. That's wow. That's sure-ist? :))
//You know, if I were offline right now I needn't be concerned with such trivial things. Wait... nevermind. I forgot notifications are well... damn. :))
//DOUBLE POST + TRIPLE EDITS?! IMBA. GO TO SLEEP. < Art thou feeling it now Mr. Krabs?
Now I regret not making a serious world-changing research.
Damn :)) The chance to have met people who think like you and who could possibly understand you.
AND THEY'RE GOOD LOOKING TOO.
Just, um, damn :)) I needn't have been stuck in limbo. Wow. Just wow.
She's just A+ wow. Name-wise I think :))
There, that should be pretty vague yet oddly familiar some how.
So much possibility.
Meh. Not too late... maybe.
Screw that plan though. 'Tis be a fleeting moment.
For the record I didn't even complete my research so world-changing research, or at the very least, show-worthy research might have been really out of my reach.
And it's tomorrow. Someone make sure I sleep before tomorrow comes starting tomorrow... er... today? ktnxbai.
AND THEY'RE GOOD LOOKING TOO.
Just, um, damn :)) I needn't have been stuck in limbo. Wow. Just wow.
She's just A+ wow. Name-wise I think :))
There, that should be pretty vague yet oddly familiar some how.
So much possibility.
Meh. Not too late... maybe.
Screw that plan though. 'Tis be a fleeting moment.
For the record I didn't even complete my research so world-changing research, or at the very least, show-worthy research might have been really out of my reach.
And it's tomorrow. Someone make sure I sleep before tomorrow comes starting tomorrow... er... today? ktnxbai.
June 21, 2013
Freaking Jump-Scare Wall T-T
Organic Chem shall be my wall tonight. I have to overcome it I don't know how. I don't have time. I just need to get by for now and the rest I shall take care of better.
Damn walls. Either I just need to pull a few bricks and it topples over. Or, I need to just jump or go around it. I really need help.
But really I'm pissed. I'm awake half-passed one and it's neither a Sunday nor a holiday tomorrow. I'm just pissed that I didn't realize it was a wall until I ran into it. Pretty far it looked well jump over-able at least. Too high. That I have a sprain so I can't jump over it literally actually. Figuratively, well, I have two breaks tomorrow so I'll see what I can do.
Still ain't gonna lose hope.
//Gonna take a bath now lol (almost 2 am :P) This is not helping my complexion -_-"
Damn walls. Either I just need to pull a few bricks and it topples over. Or, I need to just jump or go around it. I really need help.
But really I'm pissed. I'm awake half-passed one and it's neither a Sunday nor a holiday tomorrow. I'm just pissed that I didn't realize it was a wall until I ran into it. Pretty far it looked well jump over-able at least. Too high. That I have a sprain so I can't jump over it literally actually. Figuratively, well, I have two breaks tomorrow so I'll see what I can do.
Still ain't gonna lose hope.
//Gonna take a bath now lol (almost 2 am :P) This is not helping my complexion -_-"
June 20, 2013
New Challenger Appeared!
Nuzlocke Challenge anyone?
Either RSE or BW1 :D
I should probably finish BW2 ahahaha
Either RSE or BW1 :D
I should probably finish BW2 ahahaha
June 15, 2013
A gig is a gig is a gig is a gig.
We're doin' it. G-man might be there. We need groundswell. We need stalkers!
*doo doo doo doot*
Feeling good. Nice to unwind after a long day like this. Excited to see people again. You know, the people I no longer see. Here's to more parties and more times to show-off :D
Gambatte future~
*doo doo doo doot*
Feeling good. Nice to unwind after a long day like this. Excited to see people again. You know, the people I no longer see. Here's to more parties and more times to show-off :D
Gambatte future~
June 13, 2013
"Stay the Night?"
That'll be hm... how much now?
I wish it was that simple falling asleep, talking to the owner of the Inn, getting under the covers, and then waking up feeling alert, awake, enthusiastic.
Also feels weird if I'm getting the right vibes from that other post. I'd rather not think about it o.o Really -.-
Visual Novels. Hm...
I wish it was that simple falling asleep, talking to the owner of the Inn, getting under the covers, and then waking up feeling alert, awake, enthusiastic.
Also feels weird if I'm getting the right vibes from that other post. I'd rather not think about it o.o Really -.-
Visual Novels. Hm...
June 12, 2013
Rest, Retire, Subclass.
The extra skill points made it easier to grind back up, and in essence the build is the same.
Offensively atleast. It's much more offensive now, so that's something that should be noted. And instead of taking damage, I hope to just evade or finish of the battle before taking too much.
And now for a real life parallelism.
The rest has done nothing overall I think. I'm still up to my old ways. I'm hoping I can finally change my build though to something that hits harder, or does more hits over time, and yet takes less time to finish an encounter. Though today the build is earlier and the timing more convenient so I think that it's starting of as a good dungeon. So welcome to Stratum 2, I've mapped BF1, just one more area unmapped. So it's just the Random Encounters I need to handle. It'll be interesting to see if I can finally get away from routine. I hope I do. Here's to exploring and less grinding :D
Also, sub-classing. No points in my subclass skills yet. I think.
Offensively atleast. It's much more offensive now, so that's something that should be noted. And instead of taking damage, I hope to just evade or finish of the battle before taking too much.
And now for a real life parallelism.
The rest has done nothing overall I think. I'm still up to my old ways. I'm hoping I can finally change my build though to something that hits harder, or does more hits over time, and yet takes less time to finish an encounter. Though today the build is earlier and the timing more convenient so I think that it's starting of as a good dungeon. So welcome to Stratum 2, I've mapped BF1, just one more area unmapped. So it's just the Random Encounters I need to handle. It'll be interesting to see if I can finally get away from routine. I hope I do. Here's to exploring and less grinding :D
Also, sub-classing. No points in my subclass skills yet. I think.
June 03, 2013
May the odds be ever in you favor.
NV "I don't want my classes to be Bio at 7 then Chem right after. Too much hassle"
Screw you man. Some people don't even have a chem yet and you're worrying about your convenience.
Good luck have fun. Andscrew your luck err... I hope everybody gets the schedule they want and deserve.
Screw you man. Some people don't even have a chem yet and you're worrying about your convenience.
Good luck have fun. And
June 01, 2013
I don't want to go back to school
because I haven't gotten my sleep pattern right yet.
I thought I was on my way, I was waking up before noon now. But from this post you'll know that I'm still awake at 2 in the morning. Also, that I'll be taking a bath soon. Well a shower. What? Cold showers at 2am not normal for you? (I think I've had that as a topic before...) Anyway... I want to play more. But, what to play? I ask myself that question all the time. ALL THE TIME. So when exactly do I play if I'm preoccupied with asking myself that question. I just play whenever. I hope that I'll get to keep my 3DS during the semester. Like have it out during weekdays and such. I'll be 18 this semester so I think I deserve that privilege. Though I guess that comes with the responsibility that I study for the courses I have this semester. If I get the one (or two) that still eludes me that is. I hope I get a slot. I really need/want it. It'll be fun in a non-coursemate class where they all know each other. I hope that the friendships I collect are not single-sem kind of things though. I hope. I really hope. Then again, don't I have too many friends? Wait, why would that be a problem? I mean, don't more friends, mean more fun? It's weird having circles that don't intersect, I think other people have these problems too. I should be glad I actually have more than a few circles I care deeply about. I'm just afraid that when my friends of two different circles meet, they find out that I'm not the me I am when I'm not with them. I'm afraid I'm not me when I'm with different people. And I don't want to decide which one of those "me's" I am, if any. Or is it possible that I am all those... and more? What is this like an Turn Based RPG with Random Generating Dungeons where you fuseDemons, er... Personas to get even more powerful Personas where you get stronger and stronger based on the links you have with people around you? More than that, does that mean I could possibly be a synthetic, solid, moldable, hydrocarbon-based polymer?
. . .
I don't want to be fake.
//Not to say that by going back to school I'll be fake, or would that be that I would be fake again? But wouldn't meeting new people during the new semester mean having to live up to another one of the personas that they've thought you be? Wait, why would it be about other people? It should only be you, you, you. More importantly, it should be me, me, me. Just me, what I think about me, and me and my interactions with those who are worrying about them, what they think about themselves, and our interactions with one another.
I thought I was on my way, I was waking up before noon now. But from this post you'll know that I'm still awake at 2 in the morning. Also, that I'll be taking a bath soon. Well a shower. What? Cold showers at 2am not normal for you? (I think I've had that as a topic before...) Anyway... I want to play more. But, what to play? I ask myself that question all the time. ALL THE TIME. So when exactly do I play if I'm preoccupied with asking myself that question. I just play whenever. I hope that I'll get to keep my 3DS during the semester. Like have it out during weekdays and such. I'll be 18 this semester so I think I deserve that privilege. Though I guess that comes with the responsibility that I study for the courses I have this semester. If I get the one (or two) that still eludes me that is. I hope I get a slot. I really need/want it. It'll be fun in a non-coursemate class where they all know each other. I hope that the friendships I collect are not single-sem kind of things though. I hope. I really hope. Then again, don't I have too many friends? Wait, why would that be a problem? I mean, don't more friends, mean more fun? It's weird having circles that don't intersect, I think other people have these problems too. I should be glad I actually have more than a few circles I care deeply about. I'm just afraid that when my friends of two different circles meet, they find out that I'm not the me I am when I'm not with them. I'm afraid I'm not me when I'm with different people. And I don't want to decide which one of those "me's" I am, if any. Or is it possible that I am all those... and more? What is this like an Turn Based RPG with Random Generating Dungeons where you fuse
. . .
I don't want to be fake.
//Not to say that by going back to school I'll be fake, or would that be that I would be fake again? But wouldn't meeting new people during the new semester mean having to live up to another one of the personas that they've thought you be? Wait, why would it be about other people? It should only be you, you, you. More importantly, it should be me, me, me. Just me, what I think about me, and me and my interactions with those who are worrying about them, what they think about themselves, and our interactions with one another.
May 28, 2013
Woah, intense o.o
Maybe it's time I tried my hand at fiction writing.
HashTagWhatTheHellAreYouThinkingHeroLancer(?)
HashTagWhatTheHellAreYouThinking
I've finally figured it out, Master Jedi.
QT-pt
I think I might be fluent in AoS too.
I don't need a girlfriend right now. I can't have one right now. (Not that there is anyone actually -_-")
It's just that I feel guilty that I'm jealous when other people are together. I feel jealous of the hugs.
And it's that I just want a girlfriend for the contact and not the connection.
I don't want a girlfriend because I want to love. I want a girlfriend because I want to show how I love.
I want to love because there is hugs and kisses and holding hands.
Right now, I'm afraid that that is all love is to me right now.
Until I figure out whether I love because I love her, or I love because I'd love to be with her, I'll be here.
Stuck in limbo.
But damn, I want a hug -_-"
I think I might be fluent in AoS too.
I don't need a girlfriend right now. I can't have one right now. (Not that there is anyone actually -_-")
It's just that I feel guilty that I'm jealous when other people are together. I feel jealous of the hugs.
And it's that I just want a girlfriend for the contact and not the connection.
I don't want a girlfriend because I want to love. I want a girlfriend because I want to show how I love.
I want to love because there is hugs and kisses and holding hands.
Right now, I'm afraid that that is all love is to me right now.
Until I figure out whether I love because I love her, or I love because I'd love to be with her, I'll be here.
Stuck in limbo.
But damn, I want a hug -_-"
May 26, 2013
May 18, 2013
Almost gone, but not quite.
Character Development. It's time for the vacation episode.
Health, Looks, Physique, Vocal Talent, whatever.
Just just lots of Growth maybe. Or at least the start of growth.
Also, good weather and safety.
GAMBATTE!!!
Health, Looks, Physique, Vocal Talent, whatever.
Just just lots of Growth maybe. Or at least the start of growth.
Also, good weather and safety.
GAMBATTE!!!
May 17, 2013
You got this Bro.
The err was mine, I am but a humble man.
Carelessness not expected from a Lancer. Though it wasn't my fault? Who cares whose it is. Just um... yeah. You got this Bro. "'Kaw na bahala Bro."
Carelessness not expected from a Lancer. Though it wasn't my fault? Who cares whose it is. Just um... yeah. You got this Bro. "'Kaw na bahala Bro."
May 16, 2013
May 07, 2013
Hold you arms out wide.
To strive for the ideals. Maybe that's it then? The end game is to achieve the ideal.
Would it be updates and upgrades until full customization? Or do you save up and wait for the final developer update? What if you get the final one, and a new one is released? What then?
I'm playing favorites until then. There's more than one factor that decides these things.
Just no competitive play I guess? No PvP hopefully?
//And if I manage to make a GIF it's job class change. Maybe.
//Probably still not what I probably am, but hey it'll be fun.
//PIXELIZED MADNESS!!!
Would it be updates and upgrades until full customization? Or do you save up and wait for the final developer update? What if you get the final one, and a new one is released? What then?
I'm playing favorites until then. There's more than one factor that decides these things.
Just no competitive play I guess? No PvP hopefully?
//And if I manage to make a GIF it's job class change. Maybe.
//Probably still not what I probably am, but hey it'll be fun.
//PIXELIZED MADNESS!!!
April 30, 2013
Summer over the rainbow.
Ahahaha that wasn't very punny o.o I wasn't even supposed to post anything about well... nevermind.
Just damn.
No matter what anybody says, it's her eyes and her hair. *sigh* eyes that will never look at me that way and hair that will never be fixed for me.
I like being selfish :p
Just damn.
No matter what anybody says, it's her eyes and her hair. *sigh* eyes that will never look at me that way and hair that will never be fixed for me.
I like being selfish :p
April 23, 2013
I'm impressed.
Separation is the way to go. It's more than time, it's more than how far away. It's how long you've been away, no matter how near. It sucks... would be what I should be saying but I honestly don't feel that way. As easy as it was for me to fall in love with you, it was just as easy for me to forget that I have been in love with you. Not to say I've forgotten I was in love with you, but somewhere along the way, I did forget I was in love with you. But I do remember I had been in love with you. But only just now.
Looking back, I never did anything to make you feel that I was in love with you, and maybe I should be sorry. But I'm not, because you never looked at me that way anyway. Because I never made a move. So you never would have considered me that way. So I should be sorry? Er... I'm confused.
At night, or sometimes during the wee hours of the morning, I lay on my bed and try to think of something that would help me fall asleep. Why is it, that there is only one face that ends up on my mind, one face that ends up on my mind before sleep takes me.
And then I think it must be true.
I wake up the next morning, or early afternoon, and I go about my own business. I eat, I shower, I play games, not once thinking about the last face on my mind the night before.
So now I think it couldn't be true.
Is it that I was truly in love with you, or am I in love with the thought of being in love with you, or maybe the thought of just being in love in general?
Perhaps those were all true at one point in time... but I guess what matters right now, is what I feel right now.
Am I in love? Am I?
[Note: being in love is different from being IN love. Being infatuated vs being within love, is not the question here. To be within love, it must be mutual, whether due to infatuation or choice, being mutual means being IN love. That is not the case here.]
Looking back, I never did anything to make you feel that I was in love with you, and maybe I should be sorry. But I'm not, because you never looked at me that way anyway. Because I never made a move. So you never would have considered me that way. So I should be sorry? Er... I'm confused.
At night, or sometimes during the wee hours of the morning, I lay on my bed and try to think of something that would help me fall asleep. Why is it, that there is only one face that ends up on my mind, one face that ends up on my mind before sleep takes me.
And then I think it must be true.
I wake up the next morning, or early afternoon, and I go about my own business. I eat, I shower, I play games, not once thinking about the last face on my mind the night before.
So now I think it couldn't be true.
Is it that I was truly in love with you, or am I in love with the thought of being in love with you, or maybe the thought of just being in love in general?
Perhaps those were all true at one point in time... but I guess what matters right now, is what I feel right now.
Am I in love? Am I?
[Note: being in love is different from being IN love. Being infatuated vs being within love, is not the question here. To be within love, it must be mutual, whether due to infatuation or choice, being mutual means being IN love. That is not the case here.]
April 14, 2013
March 30, 2013
Call me Jigoro.
I just realized I'm good at looking for things that aren't there :))
Hopefully, I'll have someone else mention that for me. You know in a real cliche manner portrayed in most pop culture.
But seriously, maybe I'm really great a symbolism too and in the future I went back in time to show myself what the future holds through my Autobiography. Except I won't really be able to tell it's the future until it becomes the present because it comes in not autobiography form? Er... I... don't understand either :)) Oh, well.
Hopefully, I'll have someone else mention that for me. You know in a real cliche manner portrayed in most pop culture.
But seriously, maybe I'm really great a symbolism too and in the future I went back in time to show myself what the future holds through my Autobiography. Except I won't really be able to tell it's the future until it becomes the present because it comes in not autobiography form? Er... I... don't understand either :)) Oh, well.
March 29, 2013
Will she ever ask?
So... that's the plan then. Avoid until pursued. But what if there's no chase. Then nothing's lost, right? Well net on one side is negative whether or not the plan is followed or not. So is there truly nothing lost? Just the slight chance of gain maybe?
I feel a depression
a depression in my chest
where my heart should be
nothing...
only the space
I left for you.
*bow*
*clap clap clap*
*sips cup of joe*
//You know stereotypical emo/hipster poetry in an underground coffee shop
March 28, 2013
And I'm going to Die Tonite.
The story of my Finals Break.
I don't want to work. Yet. Thank you break.
But can I atleast wake up normally. *sigh*
Sleeping patterns
Bullets: {d6}
Shots: {d6}{d6}
I don't want to work. Yet. Thank you break.
But can I atleast wake up normally. *sigh*
Sleeping patterns
Bullets: {d6}
Shots: {d6}{d6}
March 26, 2013
March 21, 2013
Contemplating Time Travel.
If ever I do invent Time Travel... I actually would already have.
Future me would have realized that by going to this present to change things... well he has to because if he doesn't his past will be gone and my future will be different. But he doesn't actually realize this until he's back in the future. But the thing is, I've already realized it here in the present so future me doesn't need to back to this present to learn it.
If for whatever reason you time travel backwards, nothing will change because time has already accounted / been accounting for your actions for when you time traveled/ will time travel (I don't know what tense to use o.o)
The consequences of you time travelling has already been accounted for because you have time traveled it will have happened anyway.
So why time travel? Wait, have I just convinced you to NOT make a time machine? To NOT time travel? So wait... future you won't be going back in time anymore? Why is everything still the same? Get it now? Whether or not you go back in time, everything has happened precisely because you may or may not have time traveled to that specific point in time.
Oh, you lost your something? And it still isn't with you in the future? Time Travels. Retrieves it but it gets even more lost.
Oh, you lost your something? And it still isn't with you in the future? Doesn't time travel. Still lost.
If you did manage to get back your something due to time traveling, why isn't it with you now?
It's confusing really and it should probably be contemplated when you're not busy and want to be busy or over a few drinks with some friends.
The only way to change the past is to change the present because your present's future's past is your present's present present.
Perspective I suppose.
I need a diagram. + Relate this to gaming (actually I have, through the Life's just a game where you lose your lives / restart from a savepoint all the time. Of course you don't remember silly :P)
Future me would have realized that by going to this present to change things... well he has to because if he doesn't his past will be gone and my future will be different. But he doesn't actually realize this until he's back in the future. But the thing is, I've already realized it here in the present so future me doesn't need to back to this present to learn it.
If for whatever reason you time travel backwards, nothing will change because time has already accounted / been accounting for your actions for when you time traveled/ will time travel (I don't know what tense to use o.o)
The consequences of you time travelling has already been accounted for because you have time traveled it will have happened anyway.
So why time travel? Wait, have I just convinced you to NOT make a time machine? To NOT time travel? So wait... future you won't be going back in time anymore? Why is everything still the same? Get it now? Whether or not you go back in time, everything has happened precisely because you may or may not have time traveled to that specific point in time.
Oh, you lost your something? And it still isn't with you in the future? Time Travels. Retrieves it but it gets even more lost.
Oh, you lost your something? And it still isn't with you in the future? Doesn't time travel. Still lost.
If you did manage to get back your something due to time traveling, why isn't it with you now?
It's confusing really and it should probably be contemplated when you're not busy and want to be busy or over a few drinks with some friends.
The only way to change the past is to change the present because your present's future's past is your present's present present.
Perspective I suppose.
I need a diagram. + Relate this to gaming (actually I have, through the Life's just a game where you lose your lives / restart from a savepoint all the time. Of course you don't remember silly :P)
March 20, 2013
Neh! Neh! Neh!
Heh! Neh! Uehhh!
rr... Grrrr! Grrrr!
Raah! Raah! Raah!
I don't want to go back to school yet!
Please just let me rest already. I don't want to work anymore. Just for a long while please. *sigh*
SUMMER. PLEASE. TAKE ME. LET ME BE FINISH.
But I am not. Therefore you can not.
I have to finish. So that you may.
I should finish now. So that you will.
But I can not. Not today.
JUST A BIT LONGER!!! (maybe more than a bit... like a byte... or a kilo or megabyte T-T)
LEZZDODIS! let me do this T-T
rr... Grrrr! Grrrr!
Raah! Raah! Raah!
I don't want to go back to school yet!
Please just let me rest already. I don't want to work anymore. Just for a long while please. *sigh*
SUMMER. PLEASE. TAKE ME. LET ME BE FINISH.
But I am not. Therefore you can not.
I have to finish. So that you may.
I should finish now. So that you will.
But I can not. Not today.
JUST A BIT LONGER!!! (maybe more than a bit... like a byte... or a kilo or megabyte T-T)
LEZZDODIS! let me do this T-T
March 19, 2013
10 Things I Know to be True
1. I have Bio Lec at 7am on Tuesdays.
2. I have Bio Lab at 8:30 on Tuesdays.
3. My bed is a meter behind me as I'm typing this.
4. There are 2 piles of clothes on my bed right now.
5. I have to go to sleep now so I can wake up at 5:45.
6. Tomorrow is my Mom's birthday.
7. The only class I have tomorrow is my 1:15-2:15 Math 100 class.
8. I have to practice a Women's dance on Thursday.
9. I'm going to a friend's "debut" on Saturday.
And ten, I'm unconditionally, and irrevocably... in love with her :))
//Just realized that things I know to be true, may or may not be true,
but at the very least, true to me. I think that's the truth about that
2. I have Bio Lab at 8:30 on Tuesdays.
3. My bed is a meter behind me as I'm typing this.
4. There are 2 piles of clothes on my bed right now.
5. I have to go to sleep now so I can wake up at 5:45.
6. Tomorrow is my Mom's birthday.
7. The only class I have tomorrow is my 1:15-2:15 Math 100 class.
8. I have to practice a Women's dance on Thursday.
9. I'm going to a friend's "debut" on Saturday.
And ten, I'm unconditionally, and irrevocably... in love with her :))
//Just realized that things I know to be true, may or may not be true,
but at the very least, true to me. I think that's the truth about that
March 15, 2013
Cyanide in the World Beyond.
I've never known how to react to these kinds of things. I've never experienced it. I cannot empathize with them.
I don't want to lose someone dear. And I don't want others to lose me, maybe I could be someone dear to someone in the world. Let's all work together so we'll never have to get the lost someone feeling. Let's keep living if not for ourselves, for those who we have connected with whether accidental or not.
And when we do lose someone, it doesn't truly mean we've lost them. Let's remember them for what they want to be remembered us. Let's remember them.
I'm sorry I don't know how to react. I can't say I approve of what she did. But she's not to blame. No one is. Not one person.
A system?
//Cyanide was not the cause. Atleast I never found out what was.
I don't want to lose someone dear. And I don't want others to lose me, maybe I could be someone dear to someone in the world. Let's all work together so we'll never have to get the lost someone feeling. Let's keep living if not for ourselves, for those who we have connected with whether accidental or not.
And when we do lose someone, it doesn't truly mean we've lost them. Let's remember them for what they want to be remembered us. Let's remember them.
I'm sorry I don't know how to react. I can't say I approve of what she did. But she's not to blame. No one is. Not one person.
A system?
//Cyanide was not the cause. Atleast I never found out what was.
It's not over 'til it's over.
Chem Tests will be occupying my weekend sadly. I thought when I finish the week I'd be able to rest during the weekend but I guess it won't be the very restful. After Chem is done I still have to face Bio next week and the week after but since it's a Major, I guess I should have expected it. But more than that, since it's a Major I should have done my best for it. I regret taking that minor class which I still have to take the Finals next Friday. It was just a minor but I spent so much time on it I neglected Bio... well not even neglected. I spent sleepless nights for that minor so I was always sleeping during Bio at 7am. I'm not impressed with myself but I suppose that's what the next semester is for. Hopefully I can get the minimum I need to retain my privilege/scholarship status. Highly unlikely though unless some magic occurs. I'm pretty sure I'll pass my minors at the very least and get good grades for the rest of my subjects. Except for yeah Bio... It's embarrassing, my Major and it's what I'm not excelling at. Well it'll only be a failure if I give up on Bio because of this. So I accept the challenge. I shall triumph over Bio. I shall excel. For the untarnished truth and all that. I'll improve. And keep on improving. WATCH ME.
March 14, 2013
Stuck in Routine.
I really truly loved my first Harvest Moon: Back to Nature experience. Actually even those after. All my Mineral Town Memories. Why? Routine. It was all very controlled. Very scheduled. Run out, get basket, chickens, blue flowers, bamboo shoots, toy flowers, give to girl, horse, cows and sheep, water the plants, go to sleep at 3pm.
Yeah, the routine was so well rehearsed my character could sleep for 15 hours before waking up at 6am the next day, everyday. Unless it was festival day.
Festivals, broke routine, they were nice...
I need a Festival. I need a rather long Festival like winter in the games. For me it will be this summer. It will change the routine drastically. And I won't get back to it for 2-3 months. 2-3 months of a different routine. One whole season. ONE WHOLE SEASON of run out, get basket, chickens, mine, hot spring, mine, hot spring, shipping bin, mine, hot spring, mine, . . ., hot spring, sleep at 12mn. or something. It's routine. I miss it. I miss my old routine.
I miss my old routine. When I didn't have to stay up 'til witching hour to do who the hell cares...
I miss my old routine. When I get to chat and stay up and still be able to finish my requirements by Cinderella hour.
I'm done. I should be done. Soon I will be done. Oh Please Lord I hope I'm done.
FINALS. + a lot of other major stuff.
SUMMER. Please stay for a while~
=Teeth
=Face
=Wheels
=Arms? ++?
=Friends
=Friends
=Family
=Family
=Games
=Games
Yeah, the routine was so well rehearsed my character could sleep for 15 hours before waking up at 6am the next day, everyday. Unless it was festival day.
Festivals, broke routine, they were nice...
I need a Festival. I need a rather long Festival like winter in the games. For me it will be this summer. It will change the routine drastically. And I won't get back to it for 2-3 months. 2-3 months of a different routine. One whole season. ONE WHOLE SEASON of run out, get basket, chickens, mine, hot spring, mine, hot spring, shipping bin, mine, hot spring, mine, . . ., hot spring, sleep at 12mn. or something. It's routine. I miss it. I miss my old routine.
I miss my old routine. When I didn't have to stay up 'til witching hour to do who the hell cares...
I miss my old routine. When I get to chat and stay up and still be able to finish my requirements by Cinderella hour.
I'm done. I should be done. Soon I will be done. Oh Please Lord I hope I'm done.
FINALS. + a lot of other major stuff.
SUMMER. Please stay for a while~
=Teeth
=Face
=Wheels
=Arms? ++?
=Friends
=Friends
=Family
=Family
=Games
=Games
March 12, 2013
What's the deal?
Seriously. You show up outta nowhere and we talk about a topic even more out of nowhere... and it was nice. But then you disappear on me... leaving no trace at all. Seriously, why?
~
I miss it, okay? I miss talking to you. I miss hanging out.
~
I miss you.
//2 days late. I was really hoping there'd be some follow up... But alas! (Alas!) Or is it just to early to say?
//~
//Still Hoping.
~
I miss it, okay? I miss talking to you. I miss hanging out.
~
I miss you.
//2 days late. I was really hoping there'd be some follow up... But alas! (Alas!) Or is it just to early to say?
//~
//Still Hoping.
March 11, 2013
Precipitate.
When you find that you have precipitate in a solution, you've reached the point of saturation and your solution is now saturated.
The only way to get over this is to add solvent, or heat your solution to get a supersaturated solution. The problem with adding more solvent is that you change the concentration. The problem with supersaturating a solution is even if you do dissolve the solute, just a little scratching here and there and the precipitate will form again.
So what do you do?
You start over? Sure, I'd like that.
When you find that you don't have the want to want to study, you've reached the point your life when you should stop whatever you're doing and rest.
The only way to get over this is to add distractions, or get more time to do your stuff. The problem with distractions is that you change your concentration. The problem with getting more time is that it's actually hard to get more time and a little distract here and there and you'll be lost to the procrastination side again.
So what do you do?
You sleep? Sure, I'd like that.
//Bad parallelism I think :)) If you could even call this thing that.
The only way to get over this is to add solvent, or heat your solution to get a supersaturated solution. The problem with adding more solvent is that you change the concentration. The problem with supersaturating a solution is even if you do dissolve the solute, just a little scratching here and there and the precipitate will form again.
So what do you do?
You start over? Sure, I'd like that.
When you find that you don't have the want to want to study, you've reached the point your life when you should stop whatever you're doing and rest.
The only way to get over this is to add distractions, or get more time to do your stuff. The problem with distractions is that you change your concentration. The problem with getting more time is that it's actually hard to get more time and a little distract here and there and you'll be lost to the procrastination side again.
So what do you do?
You sleep? Sure, I'd like that.
//Bad parallelism I think :)) If you could even call this thing that.
March 10, 2013
I just need to post something.
Something.
Near Death Experience :-bd Well I technically couldn't have died so yeah I'm alive it felt like sleeping really.
SLEEP. Pass...
Near Death Experience :-bd Well I technically couldn't have died so yeah I'm alive it felt like sleeping really.
SLEEP. Pass...
March 06, 2013
And he slept until he could sleep no more.
Except he didn't sleep. He was awake. But he wished he was sleeping. He wished he was at peace. He wished it were all over. And when we awoke it was all over. And nothingness came to greet him. And he regretted it.
And so he didn't sleep. And didn't wish he was sleeping. But wished that he could sleep sooner. But didn't sleep sooner, because he didn't doing anything to accomplish it. And he regretted it.
So he cried. And he cried. And he cried, until he could cry no more. And he cried himself to sleep. And when he awoke, it had only been an hour. And he could no longer sleep. And he regretted it.
And he regretted it. And regretted it. And regretted it, until he could regret no more. But he couldn't... so he slept, and regretted, and slept and regretted. And nothingness came to greet him. And so he slept with regret.
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//EDIT: And he didn't shave thereafter.
And so he didn't sleep. And didn't wish he was sleeping. But wished that he could sleep sooner. But didn't sleep sooner, because he didn't doing anything to accomplish it. And he regretted it.
So he cried. And he cried. And he cried, until he could cry no more. And he cried himself to sleep. And when he awoke, it had only been an hour. And he could no longer sleep. And he regretted it.
And he regretted it. And regretted it. And regretted it, until he could regret no more. But he couldn't... so he slept, and regretted, and slept and regretted. And nothingness came to greet him. And so he slept with regret.
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//EDIT: And he didn't shave thereafter.
February 28, 2013
Sorry. Different from what you expect.
Humihingi lang po ako ng kaunting oras para po mapagdasal ang isang nilalang na ginawan ako ng mali.
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Pagdasal niyo po siya na kawaan siya ng Diyos, at sana'y matapos na ang anumang kahirapan ng kasalukuyan niyang hinaharap.
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Kayo na lang po maawa sa kanya, pagkat hindi ko po kaya sa ngayon. Siguradong may pinagdadaanan siyang kahirapan sa kasalukuyan, ngunit sana'y hindi na lang niya inilalabas ito sa kanyang mga estudyante.
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Hindi ko po kasi talaga kayang maawa sa kanya sa ngayon. Napakasarado ng kanyang isip. Siya lang lagi ang tama, at dahil hindi kayo pareho ng opinyon, ikaw ay mali. Puro mali nga lang ang hinahanap niya di na bali ang ibang mga aspeto ng iyong gawa.
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Ang pinakaikinagagalit ko kasi ay ang pagtutol niya sa mga ideya. Dahil ito na ang depenisyon noon, ito na 'yon maghabang buhay. Hindi ko mawari kung paano asesenso ang kahit sino sa pananaw na ito. Ang problem pa'y siya'y makaka
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Pero sabagay, siya'y magsisilbing isang leksiyon sa buhay. Na mayroon talagang mga taong hindi nagbabago dahil ayaw magbago. Mayroong mga pagkakataon na may madadaan kang taong walang pake sa opinyon ng iba. Na iniisip na matanda na siya kaya't hindi na rin naman siya makakahabol sa mga kasalukuyang bagay, huwag na lang ako susubok magbago.
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Sana'y sinubukan lang man niyang makisama sa pagbabago ng panahon. Lahat ay nagagawa kung gugustuhin.
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Pero tuwing hindi siya galit sa lahat, at hindi naninigaw, masaya at kahali-halinang magklase. Kaenga-engayong sumagot ng mga tanong at sumali sa pagtalakay. Ngunit tipong isa't kalahating oras lang ay iba na naman ang kanyang emosyon. Sobrang bait, sobrang galit... Napakapabagu-bago. Napaka-unstable. Napaka-bipolar.
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Kawawa naman siya. Lahat ng sinisingko niya dahil sa "academic honesty", o kinakwatro niya dahil sa pagscan lamang ng papel nila, o pati ang mga binigyan niya ng tres o 2.5 na dahil nagkamali lang sa paglalapat ng numero ng iyong mga pahina...
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Lahat 'yon ay nag-iisip ng masama tungkol sa kanya. Kawawa naman talaga siya. Siguro maari rin itong dahilan ng kalagayan niya ngayon. Ngunit hindi ko po talaga siya mapatawad sa ngayon.
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Ang hiling ko po sa inyo ay pagdasal niyo po siya at maawa po kayo sa kanya, dahil andami pong hindi naawa sa kanya. Pagdasal niyo na rin po ako na mapatawad ko na siya at na tuluyang maintindihan ko kung anong kailangan niya.
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Sana po ay pagdasal niyo na rin po ang lahat ng mga gumawa ng mali sa inyo, alam man nila o hindi. Mayroon silang pinagdadaan kaya't kakailanganin nila ang lahat ng dasal na maibibigay natin.
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"Hindi pa po ako handang magpatawad."
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Pagdasal niyo po siya na kawaan siya ng Diyos, at sana'y matapos na ang anumang kahirapan ng kasalukuyan niyang hinaharap.
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Kayo na lang po maawa sa kanya, pagkat hindi ko po kaya sa ngayon. Siguradong may pinagdadaanan siyang kahirapan sa kasalukuyan, ngunit sana'y hindi na lang niya inilalabas ito sa kanyang mga estudyante.
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Hindi ko po kasi talaga kayang maawa sa kanya sa ngayon. Napakasarado ng kanyang isip. Siya lang lagi ang tama, at dahil hindi kayo pareho ng opinyon, ikaw ay mali. Puro mali nga lang ang hinahanap niya di na bali ang ibang mga aspeto ng iyong gawa.
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Ang pinakaikinagagalit ko kasi ay ang pagtutol niya sa mga ideya. Dahil ito na ang depenisyon noon, ito na 'yon maghabang buhay. Hindi ko mawari kung paano asesenso ang kahit sino sa pananaw na ito. Ang problem pa'y siya'y makaka
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Alam mo hindi na ako galit. Kawawa talaga siya. Siguradong merong siyang pinagdadaan sa kasalukuyan. Nakakainis lang dahil nilalabas niya ito sa kanyang mga estudyante. Buti kung hindi tayo ang susunod sa mga yapak ng henerasyon nila eh. Buti kung hindi ang kinabukasan ang naiimpluwensiyahan niya ng kanyang saradong isip.
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Pero sabagay, siya'y magsisilbing isang leksiyon sa buhay. Na mayroon talagang mga taong hindi nagbabago dahil ayaw magbago. Mayroong mga pagkakataon na may madadaan kang taong walang pake sa opinyon ng iba. Na iniisip na matanda na siya kaya't hindi na rin naman siya makakahabol sa mga kasalukuyang bagay, huwag na lang ako susubok magbago.
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Sana'y sinubukan lang man niyang makisama sa pagbabago ng panahon. Lahat ay nagagawa kung gugustuhin.
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Pero tuwing hindi siya galit sa lahat, at hindi naninigaw, masaya at kahali-halinang magklase. Kaenga-engayong sumagot ng mga tanong at sumali sa pagtalakay. Ngunit tipong isa't kalahating oras lang ay iba na naman ang kanyang emosyon. Sobrang bait, sobrang galit... Napakapabagu-bago. Napaka-unstable. Napaka-bipolar.
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Kawawa naman siya. Lahat ng sinisingko niya dahil sa "academic honesty", o kinakwatro niya dahil sa pagscan lamang ng papel nila, o pati ang mga binigyan niya ng tres o 2.5 na dahil nagkamali lang sa paglalapat ng numero ng iyong mga pahina...
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Lahat 'yon ay nag-iisip ng masama tungkol sa kanya. Kawawa naman talaga siya. Siguro maari rin itong dahilan ng kalagayan niya ngayon. Ngunit hindi ko po talaga siya mapatawad sa ngayon.
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Ang hiling ko po sa inyo ay pagdasal niyo po siya at maawa po kayo sa kanya, dahil andami pong hindi naawa sa kanya. Pagdasal niyo na rin po ako na mapatawad ko na siya at na tuluyang maintindihan ko kung anong kailangan niya.
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Sana po ay pagdasal niyo na rin po ang lahat ng mga gumawa ng mali sa inyo, alam man nila o hindi. Mayroon silang pinagdadaan kaya't kakailanganin nila ang lahat ng dasal na maibibigay natin.
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"Hindi pa po ako handang magpatawad."
February 24, 2013
In 3... 2... 1...
PANIC!!!
Thank you two and a half hour, Half-minute Hero! Just thank you. And to you too Monster Hunter 3U and Etrian Odyssey 4!
I have a mini thesis to write. And I forwent(?) I just didn't do my research today and I went home to my 3DS and at least I don't regret any of it. Wait... DEMOS?! THEY WERE FREAKING DEMOS?! Okay maybe I do kinda regret using my time for that but still.
Ilovegames. Thankyouforplaying.
But I still have a mini thesis to write.
Thank you two and a half hour, Half-minute Hero! Just thank you. And to you too Monster Hunter 3U and Etrian Odyssey 4!
I have a mini thesis to write. And I forwent(?) I just didn't do my research today and I went home to my 3DS and at least I don't regret any of it. Wait... DEMOS?! THEY WERE FREAKING DEMOS?! Okay maybe I do kinda regret using my time for that but still.
Ilovegames. Thankyouforplaying.
But I still have a mini thesis to write.
February 21, 2013
I don't want to be grown up.
Times like this I really wish I weren't very perceptive. Like I wouldn't know what was happening, but was happy because I was being taken care of. I'd really like to go back to a time where, I didn't get what the explanation would mean but was assured that at least I was told some sort of explanation.
I really wish I could just be a kid again and not have to worry. Just, someone take this empty cup and fill it up with a little bit more of innocence. Someone.
"I'd love to believe it was all about love for a child..."
I really wish I could just be a kid again and not have to worry. Just, someone take this empty cup and fill it up with a little bit more of innocence. Someone.
"I'd love to believe it was all about love for a child..."
February 19, 2013
good intuition accompanied by an intense love of learning.
Thank you! So much! Like an unseen outside force coming to rescue me in the nick of time :))
Just thank you :D
THIS LEAD. THIS AMAZING FIND. It just really encourages people to continue learning! Woohoo~
Just thank you :D
THIS LEAD. THIS AMAZING FIND. It just really encourages people to continue learning! Woohoo~
February 16, 2013
It has four letters!
OPM is just <3
I just found out there are more genres than what I had originally thought. It was an incredible 6-hour experience. Thank you to those who endured me and my crazy antics. THANK YOU :))
So yeah :)) Happy Valentine's Day! Thanks to that I was out for around 2 days :D woohoo!
I just found out there are more genres than what I had originally thought. It was an incredible 6-hour experience. Thank you to those who endured me and my crazy antics. THANK YOU :))
So yeah :)) Happy Valentine's Day! Thanks to that I was out for around 2 days :D woohoo!
February 11, 2013
Not Lavender Anymore.
A little less than one-third, of one-half of one-half.
A little less than one-twelfth?
A little more perfect now.
ALWAYS I WANNA BE WITH YOU
AND MAKE BELIEVE WITH YOU
AND LIVE IN HARMONY, HARMONY OH LOVE
l4.9 / l2 = l.24 = l.2 => l.l [for future use]
:notbad: not bad at al1.
A little less than one-twelfth?
A little more perfect now.
ALWAYS I WANNA BE WITH YOU
AND MAKE BELIEVE WITH YOU
AND LIVE IN HARMONY, HARMONY OH LOVE
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:notbad: not bad at al1.
Calcium and Magnesium ions
And I'm sleep posting.
I never thought I really liked reading but it turns out I really do. Like really. Seriousreally.
I'm so sleepy I'm not sleepy anymore. I want to type stuff down but I don't know what to type about so I'll type down an ambiguous post...
On second thought I might look for something to read like instructions to origami fold some stuff appropriate for a "holiday" that's coming up soon.
Pink. Unnumbered. Most likely 1 though.
-> Thank you. For making me smile. xX?
I never thought I really liked reading but it turns out I really do. Like really. Seriousreally.
I'm so sleepy I'm not sleepy anymore. I want to type stuff down but I don't know what to type about so I'll type down an ambiguous post...
On second thought I might look for something to read like instructions to origami fold some stuff appropriate for a "holiday" that's coming up soon.
Pink. Unnumbered. Most likely 1 though.
-> Thank you. For making me smile. xX?
February 04, 2013
More procrastination posts.
I really don't know how Biology will fit into my future. I don't really want to be a doctor but maybe my four years will change that. Somehow studying plants and animals and writing papers (oh please no) is the Bio thing to do. Also field work seems fun :-bd. Marine Bio is interesting though I'm liking Botany too. Too bad Botany discussion is over for the semester. Zoology is starting and it seems to be alright, though it will probably more interesting as a comparative anatomy to humans discussion. Definitely not Cell Biology though. I know I'll have to deal with cells all the time, just hopefully not ALL THE TIME. Seriously, I know how to work a microscope, hell I know how to prepare slides (or I might have been lucky those two times, but still), but I don't know what the eff I'm looking for [sad face]. I think writing helps me start on the work I have to do. It's like ending my procrastination stage. Atleast I hope that's what it'll do right now.
It didn't feel like a wasted weekend because I got to play a lot, though I achieved nothing at all academic wise. *sigh* or love life wise *double sigh* Haha weird way to end this post with a comment like that but whatever.
END.
It didn't feel like a wasted weekend because I got to play a lot, though I achieved nothing at all academic wise. *sigh* or love life wise *double sigh* Haha weird way to end this post with a comment like that but whatever.
END.
February 03, 2013
Slash Slash.
I never thought I'd be able to do something like this. It just never occurred to me that it was this fulfilling. The anticipation of when you'll feel it happen, that lingering feeling when it's done.
The blood. The pain. It feels so... nice.
(Haha not me though. Not ever.)
The blood. The pain. It feels so... nice.
(Haha not me though. Not ever.)
January 29, 2013
NEVERMIND!
I feel so frustrated. But someone's right about one thing. I'm good at bottling things up.
And it hurts just enough to make me keep wanting more. Haha. Actually that's not how I feel but it seemed pretty poetic to say that.
In other news, I'd like to say I'm in love, like hopelessly head over heels in love, but I'm not in love. I am upset. And frustrated. And I am smiling. That's what's important.
It doesn't matter what I feel really. It's what I make people believe I feel and therefore what they feel. I know I don't make a big enough impact on other's emotions, but I'd like to.
I want to feel important. Every now and then. I just want to be someone for someone.
I don't want to be alone, what use is bottling things up if there's no one there to open you up.
I have used to many "I"s and now I am selfish and self-centered.
Something should be done. Something. Panic should not be done. Panicking.
I can't seem to get out of my "I" thing.
It's more than the test I took today. More than the amount of time I spent saving Skyrim today. More than the weekend that felt it was wasted. More than the last week's breaks not being filled.
It's my whole life that feels like it's not crescendo-ing up to anything. It's not exciting.
Something can be done. I think.
I think I feel lonely. But I have friends. I call them friends. I like them. They're nice.
What am I to them? I don't care. They're my friends.
OH NEVERMIND YOU!
JUST GAHHHH
TELL ME! JUST FREAKING TELL ME! JUST BEFORE I DO ANYTHING STUPID! I JUST WANT A REAL ANSWER.
I hate my intuition so you have to tell me. It has to be concrete. I can't go assuming things will or will not happen. I shouldn't. But I still am.
I need more direction. No, just a narrower road maybe.
I feel lost. I need someone... assertive.
Hm... Yeah. :close enough:
And as much as I'm embarrassed to say it.
I need a hug. I want a hug. From you. From all of you.
I am selfish. Tonight. Tomorrow. Forever.
But I don't mind. I never mind. I... nevermind.
I want to keep typing. And typing. And typing.
Until it's tomorrow. Until I have to wake up. Until I have to take my tests.
UNTIL I GET AN ANSWER FROM YOU in a relaxed subtle way.
I don't like walls of text. Here! Have lots of sentences separated by lines of spaces.
And it hurts just enough to make me keep wanting more. Haha. Actually that's not how I feel but it seemed pretty poetic to say that.
In other news, I'd like to say I'm in love, like hopelessly head over heels in love, but I'm not in love. I am upset. And frustrated. And I am smiling. That's what's important.
It doesn't matter what I feel really. It's what I make people believe I feel and therefore what they feel. I know I don't make a big enough impact on other's emotions, but I'd like to.
I want to feel important. Every now and then. I just want to be someone for someone.
I don't want to be alone, what use is bottling things up if there's no one there to open you up.
I have used to many "I"s and now I am selfish and self-centered.
Something should be done. Something. Panic should not be done. Panicking.
I can't seem to get out of my "I" thing.
It's more than the test I took today. More than the amount of time I spent saving Skyrim today. More than the weekend that felt it was wasted. More than the last week's breaks not being filled.
It's my whole life that feels like it's not crescendo-ing up to anything. It's not exciting.
Something can be done. I think.
I think I feel lonely. But I have friends. I call them friends. I like them. They're nice.
What am I to them? I don't care. They're my friends.
OH NEVERMIND YOU!
JUST GAHHHH
TELL ME! JUST FREAKING TELL ME! JUST BEFORE I DO ANYTHING STUPID! I JUST WANT A REAL ANSWER.
I hate my intuition so you have to tell me. It has to be concrete. I can't go assuming things will or will not happen. I shouldn't. But I still am.
I need more direction. No, just a narrower road maybe.
I feel lost. I need someone... assertive.
Hm... Yeah. :close enough:
And as much as I'm embarrassed to say it.
I need a hug. I want a hug. From you. From all of you.
I am selfish. Tonight. Tomorrow. Forever.
But I don't mind. I never mind. I... nevermind.
I want to keep typing. And typing. And typing.
Until it's tomorrow. Until I have to wake up. Until I have to take my tests.
UNTIL I GET AN ANSWER FROM YOU in a relaxed subtle way.
I don't like walls of text. Here! Have lots of sentences separated by lines of spaces.
January 28, 2013
_____ __ sir!
INTARWEBZ Y U LYK DIS!
GRARARARARARARARARARAR!!!
WHY NOW?! TELL ME o.o
No, nevermind. Don't waste my time by telling me T-T just just get it working.
Internet don't fail me now!!
*siiiiiiiigh*
SCREW IT
BIO
GAH
DAMN
IT
ALL
GAH
(I'm also homophobic apparently o.o) err... um nevermind. just lolz :)) SCREW EVERYTHING //
GRARARARARARARARARARAR!!!
WHY NOW?! TELL ME o.o
No, nevermind. Don't waste my time by telling me T-T just just get it working.
Internet don't fail me now!!
*siiiiiiiigh*
SCREW IT
BIO
GAH
DAMN
IT
ALL
GAH
January 27, 2013
I know what I want to do after this
SAMURAI X MARATHON!!!
I finally got a copy and hopefully will finally have time to watch. If it's not this it'll be still trying to save Skyrim.
So tests per major this week and two majors so that's four tests in total. One tomorrow, two the next day, and the last on Saturday. Then of course there's the Math which I hope I won't have a problem with.
I really want to get high grades for this. I really owe it to my parents who have raised me well (it's well enough for me, and I'm really grateful) and of course to all the taxpayers who are paying for my tuition fees.
I want to get high grades for myself too because I know I can do it, I know I have to prove it so I can deserve it, so I will.
Whee~ I'll edit that out tomorrow. Hopefully *shrugs*
. . .
On second thought I'll stick to my games and such. I still have something to prove before I think I'm ready for that. (Turns out I edited it out even before I published it the first time.)
I finally got a copy and hopefully will finally have time to watch. If it's not this it'll be still trying to save Skyrim.
So tests per major this week and two majors so that's four tests in total. One tomorrow, two the next day, and the last on Saturday. Then of course there's the Math which I hope I won't have a problem with.
I really want to get high grades for this. I really owe it to my parents who have raised me well (it's well enough for me, and I'm really grateful) and of course to all the taxpayers who are paying for my tuition fees.
I want to get high grades for myself too because I know I can do it, I know I have to prove it so I can deserve it, so I will.
Whee~ I'll edit that out tomorrow. Hopefully *shrugs*
. . .
On second thought I'll stick to my games and such. I still have something to prove before I think I'm ready for that. (Turns out I edited it out even before I published it the first time.)
January 24, 2013
I really want to type stuff down.
REALLY. T-T
Frustrated writer here. And artist. Maybe even singer and instrument player. And sports-person-thing.
Well I'm in the Personality type loop again. So yeah types I will learn your stuff :))
Frustrated writer here. And artist. Maybe even singer and instrument player. And sports-person-thing.
Well I'm in the Personality type loop again. So yeah types I will learn your stuff :))
January 23, 2013
Microcosms.
Games and College. That should be the topic of this post. Yeah but I'm pretty "busy" :)) ciao :D
January 16, 2013
Still a work in progress.
In cooperation with me trying to get nicer handwriting, I shall write short stories at first then eventually novels.
Maybe.
I just want to someday write fiction I think. But not only for myself but for others. So yeah not any self-expression kind of things maybe some views on life passed on to my writing but nothing presently personal. Hopefully I won't be writing Real-Life Fiction (oxymoron?).
Okay maybe I will start with something even smaller and simpler. and then I will post stuff. Someday.
MAYBE.
Mostly A Yes But Ehhhh.
Maybe.
I just want to someday write fiction I think. But not only for myself but for others. So yeah not any self-expression kind of things maybe some views on life passed on to my writing but nothing presently personal. Hopefully I won't be writing Real-Life Fiction (oxymoron?).
Okay maybe I will start with something even smaller and simpler. and then I will post stuff. Someday.
MAYBE.
Mostly A Yes But Ehhhh.
January 15, 2013
It's funny how I'm panicking as well.
And they don't know that / I don't tell them.
Because I don't mind hurting. I'm a masochist in a way.
But seriously. I AM PANICKING :))
Sorry. Don't mind this post.
Seriously. Don't mind this.
Because I don't mind hurting. I'm a masochist in a way.
But seriously. I AM PANICKING :))
Sorry. Don't mind this post.
Seriously. Don't mind this.
Quadrants.
With the increase in technological advancements I have realized that the degree of urgency of things to be done has also increased.
Though this observation may have just arisen from this particular case I'd like to show what I have been thinking about.
With the increase in technological advancements, teachers have decided that we, the students, are more capable of producing more output in a smaller amount of time.
Sadly this is true and should be prevalent but is not.
Actually I'd like to write a whole report on why technology is good for this and how it is also technology that is hindering this (I have no idea, nor do I have the time now to rephrase that)
but I have something due tomorrow. I started today. Not a problem I hope. It's just that this time feels different. I am panicked. must be the overlapping emotions maybe? Maybe. I hope. I am panicking.
Help :))
Though this observation may have just arisen from this particular case I'd like to show what I have been thinking about.
With the increase in technological advancements, teachers have decided that we, the students, are more capable of producing more output in a smaller amount of time.
Sadly this is true and should be prevalent but is not.
Actually I'd like to write a whole report on why technology is good for this and how it is also technology that is hindering this (I have no idea, nor do I have the time now to rephrase that)
but I have something due tomorrow. I started today. Not a problem I hope. It's just that this time feels different. I am panicked. must be the overlapping emotions maybe? Maybe. I hope. I am panicking.
Help :))
January 10, 2013
My head needs sleep.
It just doesn't feel right. I think to much and I get distracted a lot. And now I'm feeling paranoid. Does no one care? Do I not answer? Or is there just nothing going on?
I wasn't busy this afternoon so I lazed around waiting for something to be going on. There was nothing. Looks like the world was with me on this one.
... I think.
Just too much thoughts. Too much processing. That's what I like to call it but really it's just the same old thing again and again and again.
I can't do it. I don't think I can. I act all brave and ready for it. Then I see it, and I know I'm scared. I think about it. Alone... and it works out in my head. Because I'm simulating it in my head wrong. There's not a single person that did what I wanted them to do. I'm crazy I think.
I'm close to it. I just need some sleep.
Please let me sleep. Please just please oh please. Please. Just. Go. To. Sleep. BlackMage.
Good Night.
I wasn't busy this afternoon so I lazed around waiting for something to be going on. There was nothing. Looks like the world was with me on this one.
... I think.
Just too much thoughts. Too much processing. That's what I like to call it but really it's just the same old thing again and again and again.
I can't do it. I don't think I can. I act all brave and ready for it. Then I see it, and I know I'm scared. I think about it. Alone... and it works out in my head. Because I'm simulating it in my head wrong. There's not a single person that did what I wanted them to do. I'm crazy I think.
I'm close to it. I just need some sleep.
Please let me sleep. Please just please oh please. Please. Just. Go. To. Sleep. BlackMage.
Good Night.
January 08, 2013
Vacation: Over.
Well atleast I got a few achievements unlocked well more of achievements I have yet to unlock but are now available to me :))
3DS - Woohoo! Pokemon X / Y is gonna be epic and so are the already out games (KH:3D, Adventure Time, MG:Snake Eater, Gosh so many come to mind :)) )
DSLite Love - Despite a new 3DS, my DSLite comes into use again (sorry PSP :)) ) Devil Survivor 2 and I'm actually almost half way. Atleast I think I am.
New Laptop - which means moving on from saving Morrowind and Cyrodiil and now on to the Nordic country of Skyrim!
- This also means I have a PS2 Emulator now! Persona 4, Kingdom Hearts, you better watch out. Also why not Shadow of the Colossus and/or Ico and the other game in the series?
Anime Watching - P4: The Animation finally finished so I guess I'll watch that soon (but what's the point in watching it and playing the game, they're kinda the same story anyway XD)
-Rurouni Kenshin! I think a non-online copy will be available to me soon. Fingers crossed on this one.
Magic: The Gathering - SNAKEFORM! Thank you Christmas for getting me sets of blue/green cards. Excited to try out my new deck!
Japanese - I think I have the resources I need to learn Japanese. Now all I need is the motivation (which is actually reading Japanese Game Text... Yeah I wanna learn this)
That's it for now though ahaha. Nothing academic here. What would you expect over vacation? :))
3DS - Woohoo! Pokemon X / Y is gonna be epic and so are the already out games (KH:3D, Adventure Time, MG:Snake Eater, Gosh so many come to mind :)) )
DSLite Love - Despite a new 3DS, my DSLite comes into use again (sorry PSP :)) ) Devil Survivor 2 and I'm actually almost half way. Atleast I think I am.
New Laptop - which means moving on from saving Morrowind and Cyrodiil and now on to the Nordic country of Skyrim!
- This also means I have a PS2 Emulator now! Persona 4, Kingdom Hearts, you better watch out. Also why not Shadow of the Colossus and/or Ico and the other game in the series?
Anime Watching - P4: The Animation finally finished so I guess I'll watch that soon (but what's the point in watching it and playing the game, they're kinda the same story anyway XD)
-Rurouni Kenshin! I think a non-online copy will be available to me soon. Fingers crossed on this one.
Magic: The Gathering - SNAKEFORM! Thank you Christmas for getting me sets of blue/green cards. Excited to try out my new deck!
Japanese - I think I have the resources I need to learn Japanese. Now all I need is the motivation (which is actually reading Japanese Game Text... Yeah I wanna learn this)
That's it for now though ahaha. Nothing academic here. What would you expect over vacation? :))
January 07, 2013
I don't wanna grow up yet.
There are just so many games that I haven't finished yet and even more games that I haven't played.
I CAN'T GROW UP YET.
I should though. I guess I have around 6 months 'til I'm kinda legal. Hopefully I'll be driving by then. And know how a part of my life is going to be.
HOPEFULLY.
6 months of training 'til I'll be a Black Wizard? I don't feel ready. I'm not.
I'll have to be. We'll see.
I CAN'T GROW UP YET.
I should though. I guess I have around 6 months 'til I'm kinda legal. Hopefully I'll be driving by then. And know how a part of my life is going to be.
HOPEFULLY.
6 months of training 'til I'll be a Black Wizard? I don't feel ready. I'm not.
I'll have to be. We'll see.
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